Salvage Me by Kagome-Chan

The First Time

WARNING: This Is a Dark Fic. If U Don't Like Rape, and Both Mental and Physical Abuse I Suggest U Stop Reading Now. U Have Been Warned.

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Salvage Me

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The First Time

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"She's back!!!!" I heard Shippo announce as soon as I had touched down inside the well.

"With presents!!" I called up.

Four voices cheered from above my head and I smiled as my pack was lifted off my back by InuYasha. I climbed out of the well, using the vines that had grown inside it, and sat on the lip of the well.

"Who wants their present first?" I asked. InuYasha and Shippo were, of course, the first to shout 'ME!' and then get in a fight about who should be first and why and blah blah blah.

"Kirara, you first I think" I smiled down at the neko youkai that sat next to me on the well and she looked up innocently, even though I knew she knew how cute she was. In fact, she uses it against me sometimes. I dug around in my bag for a few moments, then resurfaced with a bag of tuna flavored cat treats- her favorite. "Here, I brought a bunch, so you can have one after every meal for the next week" I smiled and gave her one now, and she happily chewed it up, honestly looking as if she were smiling while she chewed.

"Sango next?" I asked. And she nodded enthusiastically.

I reached into my bag and pulled out a bright red bathing suit. A one-piece, just like mine. I handed it to her and she smiled happily.

"That's for when we take bathes and don't trust Miroku to stay away!!!!" I said, smiling angelically in Miroku's direction.

"Why I would never DREAM of such a thing!!" Miroku played, while absently drifting his hand farther and farther towards Sango's backside. I didn't see him get hit because I was rummaging in my bag again, but I heard it, and I heard Sango's cry of annoyance too.

"Here Miroku" I handed him a bottle of sake, the kind my grandfather was the most fond of. I was just glad that my mother hadn't freaked when she saw me putting it in my bag. I had told her it was for Miroku and she had just smiled and said 'Alright dear'. God, I had the coolest mom like, ever!

"Shippo, would you like your present next?" I called over to him as he was currently being chased around the clearing by InuYasha.

"Yes!!!!" He called, running over and sitting on my shoulder. I held up a bag of peaches and he almost jumped out of his skin in excitement. "How did you even get these?" He asked, already trying to jam a whole one into his mouth. "They aren't even in season!!"

"The future is a magical place Shippo" I told him with mock sincerity. I turned and frowned at InuYasha who was pouting in a tree again. "Come down here or you don't get yours!" I threatened. He grumbled a bit, but came down and crossed his arms in front of me, waiting. I laughed as I got out a bag of onion flavored chips, which were his favorite. "You don't even have to share this time" I smiled at him.

"Thanks" He mumbled as he took the bag I offered.

"I'm going to go give Kiede hers." I said, throwing my bag over my shoulder. "See you guys later"

Everyone got the hint that I wanted to talk to Kiede alone except for one. You guessed it, InuYasha.

"What did you get her?" He asked, stuffing another chip in his mouth.

"Why do you care?" I asked as I walked. Why was I being so testy with him you might ask? Well, because he was driving me stark raving NUTS, that's why!!!! Since a few weeks ago he's been constantly on me about SOMETHING. More than usual, I mean. Like, when I wanted to go take a bath with Sango, he almost acted like Miroku!! He said he wanted to come, to protect us. Of course I called him a pervert and sat him multiple times, but STILL. Then when I had gone home it had been worse than usual. He had even grabbed my arm in an effort to FORCE me to stay here in the past when I tried to jump into the well. As you may have guessed, that didn't work out in his favor. In fact, I was surprised he was walking normally right now, only three days later. I tell yah, if he had been a human it would be at least another week before he got outta that hole I sat him into. Anyway, everything I did these days was followed by an annoying comment or action by InuYasha and I hated it.

But I understood it too. He had lost Kikyo. This time, I'm pretty sure it's for good. We all SAW her die this time. We hadn't just assumed. About a month ago it was actually. We had been searching for Naraku- as always, when all of a sudden he was just...there. Standing there. Of course he had Kohaku, Kanna, and Kagura with him. It was a battle right there. We never found out why he was just waiting for us like that, but when hope seemed out of reach for our little party Kikyo had shown up and started throwing her weight around. She had helped us, but she had died in her efforts thanks to Kanna's mirror sucking all her souls out. At first, we thought it wouldn't matter because she had so many, we had no idea that the mirror had taken all of them. It was only the second time I had seen InuYasha cry. And he hadn't been the same since.

"I don't know, I'm just wonderin'"

"Actually, I brought her some balms from my time she can use for her own ailments as well as the villagers, and I brought a case she can keep them in too."

"Ailments?" He questioned.

I sighed. "Yes, Kiede is getting very old InuYasha. She is almost 66. Actually, in my time she wouldn't be considered old at all, but in this time she might not last too much longer. She has developed arthritis in her fingers and I have brought some medicine back for her that will sooth the ache." It was funny; it felt as if I was her granddaughter, because that's how she treated me. I loved Kiede so much, and it hurt to think about the fact that we might lose her soon.

"Huh" And he was quiet.

When we finally got to Kiede's hut I lifted the flap and stifled a gasp at what I saw. Kiede was laying face down in a pool of something red- blood, I realized.

"Kiede!" I shrieked, running into the room. I moved her head to the side to see her face, and to my horror, she was dead. Eyes wide open and unmoving.

I pulled my hand back as if her flesh had burned me and looked up at InuYasha who was staring at her impassively.

Then I knew.

"InuYasha...did you know about this?" I questioned.

"Come on" He said, picking me up by my collar at the back of my neck with that oh-so-gentle way he had.

"Where are we going?" I asked as he let go of my shirt and started walking to the east, away from the village, Kiede's hut, and the rest of our friends. "Shouldn't we tell them?" I questioned. He still didn't say anything, so I gave up and just followed him.

The sun was just an orange ball; seemingly resting it's head on the horizon. It was hours that we walked. And he didn't say a word the whole time. Every once in a while I saw him glancing back at me and when I would look up he would turn his head away again. My feet began to ache from the walking, the sun was hot, and I didn't have any suntan lotion and I could feel the sunburn I already had beginning to peel off my arms. I was also thirsty. Twice now I had asked if we could stop for water as we passed a stream or river, but every time he would just keep walking, and I was forced to follow, knowing that if I lost him I wouldn't be able to find my way back. Finally, when I felt I couldn't walk anymore I sat down on the side of the travelers' path he was leading us on, dropped my bag beside me, and took off my shoes.

"That's it, I don't care if you leave me, I don't care if you yell at me, I can't walk anymore and that's that." I massaged my feet, purposefully not looking at him, hoping he wasn't angry, because I didn't feel like fighting just now. All day I had been suppressing the feeling of dread that washed over me. InuYasha had never acted liked like this before and it was scaring me a little. And what would Sango and the others find when they walked into Kiede's hut and saw Kiede dead, and InuYasha and I nowhere to be found. I know I would start freaking out. I hoped InuYasha was planning on taking us back soon. Maybe he just wanted to go for a walk, clear his head. Then why bring me along? Maybe he thought I needed a walk too...or maybe he just didn't want to be alone.

I slipped my shoes back on and stood up. He hadn't moved since I had said I was stopping. He was still staring in the same direction with the same expression on his face. Cool impassiveness. I started to have flashes of him turning into his brother.

"InuYasha," I said softly, touching his arm. He turned to look at me. "Are you okay?" I asked.

He stared at me, but didn't say anything. After a moment his arms wrapped around me and he just held me. Actually, it felt nice and I found myself wrapping my arms around his waist and holding him too. Suddenly, he picked me up and rushed me into the woods. Maybe he smelled a demon or something. But when I looked up at him, I realized that wasn't it at all.

He had set me down at the base of a tree and had looked around. When he looked back at me though, his eyes had changed. Not changed as in, when he changed into a demon and I had to calm him down. No...these eyes were almost...lustful.

When he started leaning towards me, my instincts kicked in and I leaned back against the tree, not sure of his intentions. But he only continued leaning forward and pressed his palms against my face and placed his lips- surprisingly hard- against mine. His kiss wasn't gentle and passionate as you might think it to be. It was wild, and sloppy and not romantic at all. For years I had dreamed of this moment, when InuYasha would kiss me and he would be just mine. But that's not how this was. This was animalistic and frightening. When I tried pulling away he only put a hand on the back of my head to press me to him. I started to move my arms, using them as leverage to push against him, but it didn't work like that. He growled at me. I had fought enough demons to know that it was a warning.

I gasped in shock, he had never made any kind of noise at me like that before, even when we had first met and he tried to kill me.

When I gasped he had taken the opportunity to plunge his tongue into my mouth. Now I did the only thing I could, if pushing him wasn't going to work; I bit him.

I bit his tongue so hard I immediately tasted his blood in my mouth. He growled fiercely, but moved off of me and I spit his blood out onto the ground, feeling the lurching in my stomach at the thought of the taste of someone else's blood in my mouth.

Suddenly, without warning InuYasha's claw grabbed my shoulder, ripping the flesh clean off of it and practically threw me to the ground. I scrambled to move but he pinned my arms at my sides.

"Kagome...you've been a disobedient human for far too long."

"What?" I gasped. What was he talking about? Disobedient?

"I'm alpha of the pack. You're alpha female, we should mate, we're supposed to be together, create a strong union"

Alpha? Pack? Mate? Why was he suddenly talking like a dog? Wait, mate...but doesn't that mean...?

"No!!!!" I shrieked, struggling anew. What was wrong with him? He had never acted OR talked like this before. But I had to get away from him, had to make him see reason!! This was NOT my best friend! This was NOT InuYasha!!!!

"Kiede was just because I was irritated. But you Kagome, I'm here with you for a different reason" He said in a tone that I guessed was supposed to be seductive, but it actually just sounded like he had his mouth full.

Then it hit me, Kiede!!!! HE had been the one to kill her!! Irritated? He killed her because he was irritated at her? When was he NOT irritated at her? Oh my god...

As I struggled I saw his eyes turning red and I knew I was losing time. I wasn't stupid or naive, once a demon chose his mate, it was almost impossible to make them waver. But InuYasha had chosen Kikyo as his mate a long time ago. I wasn't the one he wanted, and as much as it pained me to think it, it was true. Even though Kikyo was dead, I would still always be second best to her in every way in his eyes. He doesn't want this; his animalistic side is going against his better judgment.

I stopped struggling. "InuYasha...you don't want to do this" I said in the calmest voice I could muster at the moment. It was almost completely dark now and I knew that if I could just get him to let me up, I could go to the village we passed not too long ago and get some help.

"Like hell I don't" Was his reply. He moved my hands up to lay above me, holding them down with one hand as he used the other to lift my skirt.

Now fresh panic started in as I realized that being calm wasn't going to make him stop, it was only going to make it easier for him.

"Don't you touch me!!" I screamed as I kicked and twisted below him.

He growled again and I saw how long his fangs had become. He wasn't my InuYasha anymore, he was a demon. And now I couldn't do anything but beg.

"InuYasha please!" I shouted. Maybe someone passing by would hear and come help me. Oh sure, someone would be traveling near the forest at night. And what kind of human in the feudal era had ever actually helped us? Not many. Most had saved themselves, not caring what happened to us. Why would now be any different?

Tears were streaming from my eyes now as I felt him shred my panties. This was it...

I screamed when I felt his fingers inside me. His claw raked the inside of my body and I felt wetness. His finger left me, and even though it was dark out, I could see my thick red blood on his finger, lifted to his mouth to taste. I wanted to throw up. What happened to my best friend that would protect me from anything? The guy I would cook ramen for? The one I sat when I was angry, and leaned against when I was tired? What happened to InuYasha?

I screamed again at the new intrusion. I knew by the fact that he was hovering over me that it wasn't his finger anymore. He still kept my arms from moving as he slammed himself in and out of me, and all I could do was whimper and cry and scream and hope it would be all over soon.

And then it was.

Sooner than I had expected, though much longer than I had hoped he stopped moving, let out a feral snarl, and sank his fangs into the side of my breast.

Long ago I thought my ability to scream had left me, but this new terrible pain echoed in my mind and I let out the most deafening screech I had ever heard. Worse than demons...because it was coming from me.

I felt the blood seeping over my side and hitting the ground. InuYasha got up and off of me and gathered his haori that I hadn't even noticed he had taken off. Obviously I knew he HAD.

"Get up" He told me.

But I didn't listen.

"We're heading back. Do you really want Shippo and Kirara to smell you? We have to bathe before we leave, now get up!!!!" He grabbed one of my limp arms and pulled me off the ground. At first I fell over onto his feet, not being able to stand after such rough treatment. But I got back up before he could force me again, and shakily followed him through the darkness to the stream close by.

When we arrived InuYasha didn't hesitate to drop his haori right next to the water and walk right in. I hovered next to the trees, not sure what to do. Even though he had raped me, my cloths still remained on. All he had done was lift my shirt and shred my panties.

"Come on Kagome" He said, much more gently than before. Even though he had just brutally raped me, I was still dependent on him for getting back to the others, and it was true that I honestly didn't want the demons of the group smelling him on me. But those three kinder words had made me feel just slightly better and I slowly walked to the edge of the water. I absolutely would NOT give him the satisfaction of undressing in front of him, so I walked right into the water with all my cloths intact.

"Is that how they bathe in the future?" He asked snidely.

I simply sat down and started scrubbing every inch of my skin with my hands, being careful of my wounds. Trying to get rid of the smell, memories, and altogether terribleness of the day.

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The terrible thing was- not that I hadn't had enough of a dose of terrible for the day- was that he made me walk all the way back, that very night. I was so sore and tired and just wanted to drop right where I stood but he wouldn't have that. Whenever I would start slowing down he would snarl at me, his eyes becoming red with demon anger again and I would pick up the pace.

When we arrived back we found Sango silently crying holding Shippo, while Miroku was throwing dirt into a hole- a grave, I realized. Kiede's grave.

"Kagome!!" Sango exclaimed when she saw me. I turned my head to see her running over to me and she encased me in a hug. I cringed at first. Any contact made me flinch, but then I relaxed in her arms, and felt the darkness rushing over me. Walking back had been too much. And I eagerly opened my arms to the blindness that was creeping towards the center of my eyes.

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Yes, My First Truly Dark Fic. This Is Also the First Time I'll B Writing 2 Fics At Once. Normally I Like 2 Devote All My Time 2 1, But the Other 1 I'm Currently Writing Is Just 4 Fun, This 1 Has An Actual Good Plot and Is Set Up In a Sense. The Other Is a Fun High School Fic, But I'll Still Write It 2 Its Fullest. Anyway, Hope U Enjoyed This Chapter!! Please Rate and Review and Tell Me What U Think! Thanks!!!!

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Kagome-Chan