Weathered by Foxfire

Chapter One

I lie awake on a long, dark night

I can't seem to tame my mind

Slings and arrows are killing me inside

Maybe I can't accept the life that's mine

No I can't accept the life that's mine

Sesshomaru looked out upon the horizon, as if he were searching for something, something that would soothe the agony coursing through his veins. It didn't show on his face, but he was being torn apart on the inside, an arrow of sorrow ripping into his side. Jaken stood nearby, watching apprehensively as his master's thoughts wandered.

Simple living is my desperate cry

Been trading love with indifference yeah it suits me just fine

I try to hold on but I'm calloused to the bone

Maybe that's why I feel alone

Maybe that's why I feel so alone

"Jaken," Sesshomaru's silky voice startled him out of his daze, "Yes, milord?"

" Tell Rin I am going out. She shall stay inside until I return. Until then, keep her amused."

"Yes, milord." Jaken answered and swept off to Rin's room, silently obeying his commands for once. Rin's squeals followed Sesshomaru outside, eventually fading to silence. He wanted to be alone. He needed to sort out his feelings. Nothing had affected him this badly except when his mother was murdered by none other than Naraku himself. But now Naraku was dead along with Kagome and the others. He had joined up with them in the final battle, but he was the only one left breathing.

Me...I'm rusted and weathered

Barely holding together

I'm covered in skin that peels and it just won't heal

"Kagome..." Sesshomaru whispered to the wind. 'Why did she affect me so? She was only a foolish miko,' one side of him thought. ' She was more than a foolish miko, and you know it. She was your comrade in battle and she helped you feel again. She thawed that heart of ice, and you were too afraid to show it, and now she's gone.'

The sun shines and I can't avoid the light

I think I'm holding on to life too tight

Ashes to ashes and dust to dust

Sometimes I feel like giving up

Sometimes I feel like giving up

Sesshomaru leapt off the balcony into the eternal expanse of sky, landing gracefully on both feet turning to walk towards InuYasha's Forest. A roll of thunder echoed across the landscape followed by a blinding flash of lightning. A downpour drowned out any sounds except for his heartbeat pounding in his ears. He continued walking, unhindered by the rain or thunder.

Me...I'm rusted and weathered

Barely holding together

I'm covered in skin that peels and it just won't heal

Sesshomaru stopped when he reached a familiar sight. Kagome's grave...her last resting place. Biting back the urge to break down, he pulled out the hauntingly familiar white rose she had given him. Its petals still soft as satin, looking as beautiful as when it was first picked, he placed it on her grave, grief causing one single solitary tear to escape his amber eyes, leaving a salty trail down his cheek. 'May this be my gift to the one who lit up my solitary life, the one who laughed at me, and the one who made me fall in love.'

The day reminds me of you

The night hides your truth

The earth is a voice speaking to you

Take all this pride

And leave it behind

Because one day it ends

One day we die

Believe what you will

That is your right

But I choose to win

So I choose to fight

To fight