Will You Miss Me? by tenshi_mizu

Chapter 1 by sesshsmate101

Will You Miss Me?

Now I will tell you what I've done for you

50 thousand tears I've cried

Kagome glared at the man she loved. She had cried enough over him. Over his ways of not caring for her. His ways of just not seeing her.

Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you

And you still won't hear me

Going Under

She felt betrayed, like nothing she had felt before. She had always been there for him, and this is how he pays her? Calling her a weakling, worthless, a disgusting human? Did she really want this? No. She did not.

Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself

Maybe I'll wake up for once

She stepped back as he reached for. He wanted to pull her close, to tell let her know he was sorry though actions. But that wasn't going to work this time. No! She would leave. Kagome was unaware of the tears falling down her face.

Not tormented daily defeated by you

Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

Kagome's mind sent her whirling into the past. She saw the times that they had fought. Every time it was her who said she was sorry. She submitted herself to him constantly, partly due to his youkai nature, but mostly because she loved him.

I'm going under

Drowning in you

I'm falling forever

I've got to break through

I'm going under

She felt as if she was going to be crushed by all the emotions she felt at once. Pain, Sorrow, Love, Happiness, Anger, Lust, Guilt... they all embedded them into her heart. Possibly staying there forever.

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies

So I don't know what's real and what's not

She didn't know if the few times he told her that he loved her were true or not. Was it all a figment of her imagination that her mind made up, in hopes of him actually truefully loving her?

Always confusing the thoughts in my head

So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

She wanted to believe him, she really, honest to god, did. But she remembered all the times he had called her weak, insolent. All the times that she had cried because he basically ignored her. The time that he had actually cheated on her with another. Maybe she was foolish to forgive him. Maybe, she was foolish to having ever agreed to marry him.

I'm going under

Drowning in you

I'm falling forever

I've got to break through

She didn't hear him calling her name as tears fell down her face. She didn't feel him pull her close to him, trying to get to her through body language. She didn't think he would ever change, so she did the only thing that came to her mind. She pulled away, shaking her head as she stepped from his grasp, slowly making her way to the door to their shared condo.

I'm going under

Drowning in you

I'm falling forever

I've got to break through

She turned as he stepped towards her, fleeing out the door. She didn't hear him call to her as she entered her car. She didn't hear him yell that he loved her. Nor did she hear the screams of her daughter, Rin, and her son, Shippou as they called to her from their bedrooms. Her music blared as she started her ignition. She pulled out of her driveway, tears blurring her vision only slightly as the man she loved ran out of their home.

So go on and scream

Scream at me I'm so far away

I won't be broken again

I've got to breathe - I can't keep going under

She didn't want to be hurt anymore, so she ignored his eyes, she ignored his calls, ans fled towards the calming traffic of Tokyo, Japan.

Tears blurred her vision as all the horrible thoughts of her painful marriage came crashing down on her. She didn't realize that as she turned a.....

There's another world inside of me that you may never see.

There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.

Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find.

Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind.

A semi's brakes suddenly gave out. He fishtailed his trailer in order to avoid the oncoming traffic. Kagome screamed as the trailer came towards her black Monte Carlo. She watched as the big black trailer smashed into her car.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.

Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.

Everything I am and everything in me

Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.

I'll never let you down even if I could.

I'd give up everything if only for your good.

Flashes of her kids playing in the yard came into her minds eye. Then her best friend Sango getting married, her own wedding, her father dieing. Everything, until the image of her husband running towards her car as eh sped off finally settled in on her. Her last thought before the semi struck was...

When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin.

I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.

Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone.

Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.

'I should have stayed. I should have let him speak, but I did not, and now the darkness will consume me.' She whispered his name on her lips as her car smashed into the one behind her, sending debris everywhere.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.

Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.

Everything I am and everything in me

Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.

I'll never let you down even if I could.

I'd give up everything if only for your good

Sesshomaru dove into his car the last part of his wife's vehicle disappeared from his enhanced sight. He drove around, desperately looking for the woman that he loved. The woman that was always there for him. The woman he had taken for granted. He finally came to the cross traffic, and to his surprise police cars, ambulances', and fire trucks adorned the three lane roads.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.

Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.

Everything I am and everything in me

Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.

I'll never let you down even if I could.

I'd give up everything if only for your good

(Maybe I'm just blind)

He stepped out of his vehicle in order to continue his search on foot. That was, until he noticed his wife's black Monti Carlo, smashed between a Black Honda and the trailer of a semi. With out him realizing tears settled into his eyes. He ran towards his beloved wife's car, parrying to Kami that she was alive. People didn't get out of his way fast enough, so he leaped into the air, to land only a foot away from his ichigo's car. He bent t his knees as the fresh smell of blood attacked his sensitive nose. The fir fighters were discussing a way to remove the body.

Sesshomaru's eyes bled red as the realization hit him. He had lost the one and only person who had loved him for who he was. And it was all because he could not keep his mouth shut. He began to snarl at the many humans and lower youkai that were around his precious wife's car.

Everyone backed off as he stood protectively over his mate's car. After seeing that they would do er no harm, his inner youkai tore the side of the car apart. His inner youkai scrambled to grab his mate, not believing that she was gone.

Sesshomaru began to whimper and nuzzle into her neck. Blood seeped into his mouth, but his body did not respond as it usually did. Instead his youkai began to lick his mate's face, cleaning the blood from her already messy and bruised face. His tail came to wrap around them, shielding them from the rest of the world.

Everyone watched as the grates taiyoukai ever known began to nuzzle his loves body. His inner youkai ignoring the stiffness of her body and the lac of response.

Sesshomaru licked all the wounds on his mates body, his more rational side grieving in the dark corner of his mind as his youkai still believed that his mate was coming back to him. After a few moments of no response the youkai began to shed tears, his whimpering became louder until it grew into a mighty howl of pain and guilt. At that moment, everyone in Tokyo, Japan knew that the great taiyoukai, Lord Sesshomaru, had lost his beloved mate, his soul mate. All youkai around mourned for the passing of Lady Kagome.