What if it's not meant to be by Wishful thinking

At least say good-bye when you leave

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Kagome had dark circles under her eyes, her hair was knotted up. She was laying in bed hung over, slowly she opened her eyes turning her head to see Sesshomaru gone. Rolling her eyes she sat up, "oh damn...bad idea" she grabbed her head. Grabbing her robe she stood up heading to the bathroom for a shower. She reaked of liquor her mouth tasted like a rancid heat wave. "Another fun wonderful fucking weekend for Kagome" she muttered grabbing two towels from the hall closet. Forty-five minutes later Kagome came out of the bathroom. Teeth brushed, hair in a messy bun, a pair of plaid shorts and a South park tank on. Though she smelled better, and looked decent she seemed still so tired, so worn. But Kagome had no time to pity herself, she had a two bedroom apartment and plenty of bills to pay. She felt so torn inside but no one knew it, no one could ever see it. She worked at a hair salon called "Savannah's" it wasn't anything fancy, but it paid fairly well, and was full of people like her. Different, strange, uniqe...but of course what would you expect from a place that not only cuts hair but did tattos and body pircings. Though she loved working there, she was thanking god every ten seconds that she didn't have to work that day. She went into the walk in kitchen that was connected to her living room and took a peek at the fridge. "Hmmm, water, mustard, and cottage cheese. Water it is" she started talking to herself. Pulling out the jug of Sparkletts, then her ancient black phone that hung on her wall rang. Already knowing who it is she rolled her eyes answering it... "Sesshomaru...I told you if you are going to come for a fuck then the least you can do is say goodbye when you leave" ..." I really hate how you know its me...and hello to you too" ... " Yeah whatever " ... " Look I'm sorry, okay?? But I was already late and you looked peacful with you drooling " .. "You should talk...At least I don't have a snore that can wake then dead" ... " I didn't call for this Kagome " she always hated how he would pick at her one minute and be cool and mature the next ... "Then why did you call Sesshomaru"? ... " I called to tell you I am having dinner with you tonight " .. "I don't remember inviting you " .. "You didn't"... "Then what makes you th-" she got cut off "Because you know you want me there" ... " So...you know we will end up ither fucking or fighting, seeing as how thats all we ever do anymore" ... "Are we going to start the 'where are we going with this relationship' talk again" .." Shit no!! We did that remember?? You lived with me, cheated on me, constant fighting. Any of this ringing a bell" ?? ... " Then why do you still have me" ??? ..... silence for about 20 seconds ..... "I Have no clue...Maybe because despite all your faults and my complaints I love you" ...'Dammit, I used that word again'.... " Look Kagome, you already know what I want,you already know I love you, but you won't give me that ch-" ... " Don't even fucking finish that sentance Sesshomaru.. BECAUSE I DID!!! I DID SESSHOMARU, FOR FOUR YEARS AND I GOT BURNT" ... her voice slightly raising and cracking holding in her tears from the past ... " .... " ... "Fuck...look maybe you shouldn't come over tonight, its probably a bad idea" ... "I am coming and I am bringing groceries " ... " I don't need you charity " .. "It's not charity to take care of the ones you love" ... "Shut up" ... "Do you want me to bring some vodka" ... "Was there ever any doubt in you mind" ? ... "I'll see you tonight then " ... "Sure" ... "Bye Ka-" . She hung it back on the reciver staring at it for the longset time as if it were the most fasinating thing in the world.

Noticing she still had the glass in her hand she turned around filled it with water, put the jug back on the fridge and slammed it shut. Taking a huge gulp she put the glass on the counter and buried her hands in her face and began to cry. "Why do you do this to yourself Kagome, do you get off on the heartbreak" ? She cried quietly into her hands. After a few moments she gathered herself together and began to clean. Though she knew Sesshomaru was just a big a slob as she and always helped to make her messes, she still attempted to make her home presentable. And then she would get ready for tonight and their so called dinner, which would end up (as it always did) starting civil, getting piss drunk, fighting like the world wrestling federation, then having wonderful angry sex, waking hungover and alone. This was her routine...their routine..she was use to it, but lately she felt so fragile which was unusual for her, especially when it came to Sesshomaru. But for some reason now, she felt it in her heart, if Sesshomaru left her in the morning, which she knew he would , she would be left alone in her bed, to silently weep...

A/N :

Well thats all for now...It's not much but its a start, go easy on me I beg of you...

And if you actually like my story....I'll update reeeeally soon.

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