Love Lost and Love Found by Lady Ayumi

Don't Leave Me

'I'm so alone...nobody will ever care for me..WHY WON'T SOMEONE..ANYONE WANT OR LOVE ME!' a distressed woman of the age of 25 ran to her house.She had gone to her fiance's house to have dinner with him,when she heard moans upstairs in the second bedroom.She had followed the sounds upstairs,thinking that something was wrong with him,but to her utter horror that was not to be the case.Instead what she had found was her fiance and his EX-girlfriend having sex in THEIR bedroom,on THEIR BED.A chocked sob had caught his attention from his love-making,and to his surprise it was her."Ka..Ka...Kagome..listen i can expl.."

"NO!' she had cried,grasping the door-frame for support,lest she fall to the red carpet floor"I..dont won't to..he...hear it..you..how..could..you...." she chocked on her words,unable to go on. He paled,looking like a thin sheet of rice paper,"Kagome please let me explain.."NOOOOOOO.." and with that ran as fast as her legs could carry her from the revolting site,ignoring the sound of him calling out to her,caling out her name,the name he had once said with true love.True love that was not meant to be.Love that was not true to his own beating heart

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'He..tricked me..and i..i let him...' Kagome thought as she went to the kitchen,pulling out a sharp double-edge craving knife,then going up to her dark room,for the sky had lost its brillance,as if showing off her inner tumoil..emotions.She sat down in the middle of the floor,after shutting and locking her door,and looked at the instrument that would end her pain.Outside it had suddenly started to pour,and pouring hard as if trying to tell the world of the trauma she was going through and and the clouds,shrowing her with their pity.She looked at it then,rooling up her sleeve,put the blade to her arm and,slowly pulled toward her,effectively cutting herself,watching as her life's blood showed up from the long gash and spilling down her forearm's sides.As she watched this,it seemed to her that this problem,this world and everything had disappeared,leavind only her,the blade, and her blood.

And so began a new chapter in her life.Her own dark secret.Her double life.

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As Kagome left from college,the only thing on her mind was her room,the blade,and her blood spilling over her arm.So caught up in her mind and thoughts that she did not hear her friend calling or talking to her.

"So i said to him that i was..Kagome..Kagome..Kags..Kags..KAGSSS..

She jumped,looked around only to see it was Sango and answered in a monotone voice,"hai.."

Sango's worry now had tripled.Something was happening to her friend and damn be her if she wasn''t going to find out what it was!

"Kag,i'm stating to worry about you..you've been soo distant from everyone,you hardly talk,you always have that far way look in your eyes...Kags whats happening to you,this isn't like you...WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH YOU KAGOME HIGURASHI.I WANT ANSWERS AND I WANT THEM NOWWWWW!"

'Sango...',she sighed inside and thought,'if only you knew,but you wont.Nobody will ever know.' Again,so caught into her thoughtss that she did not notice the person in front of her."Ahhhh..."she screamed as she came closer to the ground,but she didn't and she didn't see who it was who had caught her,for she had covered her eyes with her hands when she was falling.She slowly opened her eyes to met, look up into golden-amber eyes.

"You should be more careful wen...Ka...Ka...Kagome?" The once cold.stotic voice now had changed into a surprised and hestiant one.Kagome looked surprised,but that was soon replced by,what had to be the first time in a year,a small smile which grew by the second."Sesshou.."

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OOOOOOOO i'm soooo EVIL!...well i could be,but i'll write in a little more. *grumbles under breath about being to non-evil.But hey thought he wouldn't be in here this chapter,didn't u!!!BWHAHAHAHA..EVIIL..now back to the fic.....

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Sesshoumaru had been checking his watch for what had to had been the thirdeeth time that hour wondering where in the hell his half-brother was.."Where is that baka..' but his thoughts where cut off short when he felt someone bump into him from the back.He turned around just in time to see a young woman,who looked no more than 24,fall backward toward the ground.Without thinking,he reached out and miracously caught her in mid-fall.Once he got himself in check and out of shock,he stared down coldly at the woman in his arms."You should be more careful wen..Ka..Ka..Kagome?' he had asked as soon as he had a clear look over of her.If you had seen him then you would know that saying he was surprised was an understatement.His mind was blank with shocked.'THIS WAS KAGOME..THIS...THIS WAS..NO IS KAGOME..'was all his mind could come up with.He could NOT believe this.It had been 2....no 4 years since he had last seen her,and now ..she had once again managed to blow him.away.cool.creamy smooth looking skin,long,thigh-lengh,raven-blue hair with the right and left side dyed blood red ,large,expressive,soulful,blue,violet,ringed with forest green eyes,seductive curves that the top models would KILL for,and full cherry red,kissable lips,that just BEGGED to be kissed and teased.

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She could not believe it..just could not.This could not be the jerk who made her heart beat faster than..nooo dont..no not again no..no..noooooooo....

Tears started to line her eyes as one by one they started to falll."NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.."she started to sob uncontrolably,beating on his chest trying to make him let her go,soon she hit a sore spot near his rib that made him gasp in pain and effectivly letting her go.She immediatly turned on her heels and ran as fast as her legs could take her.

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A/N her fiance is by the way.....*drum roll* Kouga!!.he surprise,surprise.hehe..sry

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She ran into her house,scurried up the stairs,and into her room.As soon as she shut the door,without locking it,opened her lamp-stand drawer and grab the knife.She started cutting at herself relentlesly,not stoppinfg for a second.Soon the room started spinning.She had cut herself so much that she had lost a huge amount of blood,the carpet now stained with her life blood.She gasped in pain,dopping the knife,and fell to the floor bleeding to death.The last thing she heard before she allowed the darkness to take her forever into eternal biss was the sound of footsteps,her door opening,a gasp,a scream,something heavy hitting the floor,and someone shouting her name.She felt herself being propped up and with the last of her strenght opened her eyes and to her last surprise saw Sesshoumaru holding her with a tear-streaked face."Kagome.." he said softly,"Kagome please don't go..don't..please."Kagome softly shock her head and mouthed something that only Seshoumaru knew,which made him howl out loud in heartful pain,when she softly closed her eyes and with her last,dying breath sighed a content smile at finally relizing something and saying it to him.

'I..Love...You...My Dear...Sesshoumaru'

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'Kagome..Please...Don't..Leave...Me..'