Shattered Defense by Three words by CRysTaLteArs

one shot

Disclaimer... I do not own Sesshomaru or any other character I used from Inu Yasha. No matter how much I want to, I can't. SniFfles....so SaD

CRyStaLteaRs' (A/N): well... this is my first fan fiction.... So please, criticize it anyway you want. I don't really care. I know it is not a really good fan fiction. So please help me out and yell at me for doing something wrong. What ever your comment is, I appreciate it. Thanks for reading.

Shattered Defense by Three Words

One shot

Kagome, a 5'5 young woman, finally got off work from her job as a waitress. Opening her apartment door, she sees the one person she hadn't seen for 3 years. Her ex, Sesshomaru. Shocked, she stands at the door, staring at him.

"Kagome....we have to talk...."

Anger overcame her state of shock. "Talk.... You bastard! Why are you here? Have you not hurt me enough! How did u even get it!"

"Kagome..."

"Don't you dare Kagome me! Get out!"

"Please, I need to talk to you.... Please.... Once I'm done I will leave...."

"No, you are not going to talk. The one calling the shots today is me! Get out!"

"Please listen to me."

"You killed me you know. Isn't it a little too late for you to show up?...Every night, every day, I wish for something that I know I can never have. But I still do it. Human emotion always clouded my judgment. I never did like myself. I don't even belong in this world. You want to know what I wish for. I wish that this world does not exist. I wish, that the pain that I feel is just another magical illusion that you have cast on me."

"I'm...I...." tried Sesshomaru.

" Every damn day, I wish that I will die, that I will be killed that night, that I will never open my eyes to face this cruel life, ever again. Every day, I wish I was someone else. I wish for life to be easy. I wish for you to love me. But none of this is going to happen. I hate it, I hate it all. I despise this damn world that we all live in. Life is already hard as is, getting stab emotionally by my friends, my family had already hurt me enough.

" I'm sorry....."

"Yet, I let them anyways, because I just want to be with you. But even you stab me. Breaking my heart, almost stopping it from ever beating again. And now you show up once again in my home! Sorry just don't cut it!"

"Now tell me, why is it that I am not that I am still not dead. Didn't I insult the great lord of the western land. Send me to hell. Send me somewhere that you will never see me, ever again. Kill me. I don't care how you do it. I don't care how painful it is. All I want, is to die. You lived 500 and more years, you should know how I feel. I don't even care if you are the one that do it. As the matter of fact, I don't care who kill me. Just do it before I do it myself. You don't want to miss the chance to kill of your most hated dirty human trash now do you? Talk will you! The least you can do is talk to me.... It is either you talk now, or you leave!"

*silence*

" You can't even talk can you. And you haven't ever felt half of the pain I have ever felt. No cross that, you don't even have emotions your heartless bastard. Other then the fact that your had cried at because of your mothers death, other then the fact that your feel jealousy and anger, what else have you felt. I gave you the feeling of love, which might I add, in return, I got nothing but being kicked out of your house, on my ass, in a winter day, with those hateful words you gave me."

* silence *

"Ha! Well guess what, now I'm saying it to you. Get out off my fucken house! I never want to see you again. Cause as you can see, life is better off without you. I don't need you questioning ever single thing I do, because this is my life, not yours. Now leave!"

"No... I can't leave now...I love you..." whispered Sesshomaru.

"You...you what!? What are your talking about? You have that slut with you. You snop so low to sleep with my friend. My best friend! Stop saying what you don't mean"

Slowly Sesshomaru walks to Kagome, he held her close to his body. So close that Kagome can hardly breath. Tears are streaking down her eyes, she is too shock to move. She is too shock to even know what is happening. She finally got things straight in her mind and pushed Sesshomaru away.

"Kagura was never with me.... She is just someone I used to act with me.... I have to do it, it was the only way for me to keep you safe. She agreed to help me because she cares for you. Naraku is after you to get to me. Don't you get it? I need you safe, I need you alive. Please forgive me. I finally got rid of the threat. I finally did it."

'Please don't do this do me..........I can't love you anymore. I am not going to fall four your same trick and get left behind and abandon again. I have to stay away from you.'

"You cannot do this to me. It took me 3 years to get over you. 3 years of finally saying the things I wanted to say to you from that day on. You cannot say that to me..."

Trying to comfort her, Sesshomaru tries and reach for her again but she moved farther away. The same 4 sentence she just said out loud, repeat in her brain over and over again. Hoping that it will help get ride of the forbidden feeling that she is feeling at the moment. But it didn't matter, for once again, her defense have shattered. All because of the three words that is utter from his mouth.

"Kagome I need you. I made a mistake.... I know... please be with me. I love you so much....I'm sorry..." Sesshomaru repeatedly whispers in her ear, hoping she will forgive him. What he doesn't know is, she already have, in her heart, against her own will.

>> I noe I noe, I made Sesshy-sama so wimpy. But I still think that deep down inside him, he is not a cold person. This is a very short one shot, it is a ½ hour urge I have in writing because I have a really bad day today. Well it is my first fic, so criticizes all you want.<<