Just Living My Complicated Life by Dolly Dolphin

I Was Only 10

I own nothing except the few OC's in the story.

Inuyasha belongs to Rumiko Takashi and

Star Wars Original Triolgy © George Lucas • Lucasfilm owns Luke Skywalker, Leia Organa, Han Solo, Chewbacca, R2D2, and C3P0  

Young Jedi Knights Series © Kevin J. Anderson • Rebbecca Moesta • Boulevard • Berkley Jam • Lucasfilm LTD owns Tenel Ka, Raynar Thul, Jaina & Jacen Solo, Lewbacca 

New Jedi Order Series © R.A. Salvatore et al • Del Ray • Lucasfilm LTD owns Ben and Mara Jade Skywalker

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Lying on my bed after dinner listening to mom yelling at Haru and Takeo about their turn to the dark side, I feel so alone. I don’t know my biological mom that this mom calls Gabriella and even my dad, Inutaisho, talks about her a lot more or less, how I look like her. I pick up something nearby and I move my very long black curly hair out of my chocolate brown eyes to look out my window to see a small army coming up to the house. After I see I quickly run down stairs to see them still arguing.

“There is a small army marching to our house,” I state breaking them out of the fight.

“I sense it, Suzie, but thank you for telling me,” states mom. “Just do me one favor, you have to start running. I brought you back here so they wouldn’t find you but apparently, they have and if you get captured by them, it won’t be pretty for you. Takeo, Haru, go with Inu-Susana if I make through this I will punish you two.”

“Yes, Tabitha,” scowls Haru before mom throws her a look to make her stop.

I head out the door before the other two that the army coming to and I just book it to safety that mom has shown me if this were to ever happen. But the two catch up to me and through the force I hear mom dying and I don’t know how soon they will notice us and I know it may take us awhile to get to safety with us being kids. I keep tabs on their movements as well and I have developed enough senses that I know when things could be trouble. They must have notices that we weren’t there and after awhile they catch up to us and one of the guys grabs my neck while the Takeo and Haru are chained up.

“Put me down!” I demand but the guys starts to choke me.

“Don’t kill her, I need Inu-Susana,” states a guy coming up. “The other two I could care less if they survived but it would be interesting if we could use them as bait.”

“Yes, Fueller,” he replies and I’m dropped on the ground hard before a lot of chains are put on me and thrown into a cage.

They drag all of us out of town and I see more of the army killing the people in the town before he yells at them to burn it. Fueller then turns his attention to me and he grabs me out of the cage and takes off my clothes getting me even more scared.

“Don’t worry I won’t do that yet,” he state. I just need to make sure you are the one I want but you look like the girl I’m looking for.”

“Please, no don’t do this to me,” I beg.

“You are what 10 and I’m oh 16 I have all the right to do this to you since you should respect your elders.”

“You are only 6 years older than me so why should I respect you and you killed my mom!”

It is then when he reaches to grab me. My silver with light pink strips tail wraps around my right leg due to fear as he grabs me by the neck again. If you didn’t see the tail you would assume I’m a normal human Jedi but the tail is the only give away unless it is the full moon then I turn into a half demon. My mom did keep me hidden during that time while Haru and Takeo has a daytime cue that is if they didn’t have a charm to appear human and age a lot faster than a normal half cat demon half Jedi would and they would always be hidden. Though during the weakness, they don’t want to leave the house, while with me I have so much more energy that I hate that I have to stay in my room until the next day. I understand that I would scare people in that form but I’m not defenseless but this could be the reason why she didn’t want me to come out during that time. Fueller looks at the fire before sitting down as if to wait, moves me into his chest, and pets my hair. I’m not moving my tail so he can’t harm it nor do anything to me.

“I should have had the fire started sooner,” he states. “Oh well we can get to know each other in the mean time.”

“Master Fueller, where do you want the other 2?” asks a lady with purple straight hair and red eyes.

“Take them to camp and put them in the big cage. I’ll be there shortly once one thing is done. Oh and can I have a hair tie so her lovely curly hair so it doesn’t get in the way.”

“Yes, sir”

A hair tie is given to him and he puts it up into I think a bun since I can’t feel it on my back or see it in my face. The other people leave and it is just him and me. Fueller found my tail only to coax it out to pet it, which may calm me down or get me more livid up depending on the person. The pet it mostly relies on the pet but something like this even if the pet is right I won’t be able to calm down for awhile. After a shorter time the fire is close to his liking that he picked me up again and my tail just wraps back around my right leg. He puts my back to the fire, I move my legs away from it while screaming in shear pain, and trying to get the fire away with the force before severe damage is done. No such luck though, after what seemed forever I’m thrown on the ground and I see him gets close to me looking at my back. He puts his food on my butt and he just smirks.

“You’ll have to heal before the scar forms but you are most likely the person I need since I already see the shape I’m looking for through the burn. Let me get your cage ready and we’ll be on our way to camp."

He lifts his foot and goes to the extremely small cage that I can barely fit in and I take my chance to escape but as much as I’m moving I’m not moving fast nor can I feel things normally. He must have come over after awhile of me struggling to get on to my legs and he gets me in the cage that has a few things I’m scared of.

“If you are a good girl they won’t be used on you.”

He grabs the handle and pretty much takes me to the camp away from the fire but I’m still naked with my clothes lying on the ground. At the camp, I see Haru and Takeo sleeping in their cage and I feel tired myself so I’m hoping I can get to sleep soon but I don’t think he has that in mind because he is leading me to a small tent. I sigh heavily unknowing that my tail is swaying back in forth because I’m nervous. It always does it when I’m nervous no matter my position but I normally feel it that I can stop it but now I can’t feel lit. He puts the breaks on the wheels and opens the only door before grabbing my leg making me try and get away.

“I don’t think so,” he states. “You are to please me in a way I see fit.”

He gets me out of the cage and throws me on the ground and somehow after I get on my knees I can’t fall or get up. So I think he is using the force to control my motions and I hear the door to the tent zip so I get even more scared what might come to be.

“I should just do you like a dog would for the next few nights since the back needs to heal and the ground wouldn’t be the best for it and I don’t want you on top. But your skin is the perfect tan that I expected and I have your hair out of the way just that tail is in the way but that won’t be hard to get out of the way. By the way stop flicking it,” he states.

“I can’t help it,” I reply. “When I’m nervous it does it and since I can’t feel it I didn’t know I was nor can I stop it if I’m really nervous. By the way I’m not a weakling!”

“I never said you were but right now you are still training and that when I need to get you otherwise I’d be in trouble with all your powers. You are a deadly weapon to any foe and a good ally to a friend so I have to turn you no matter the costs.”

I see him getting his clothes off of him and coming over to me and kneel down to my level before I look down and begging him not to but he isn’t listening. I can’t feel it at all and I just see blood dripping down because of where I placed my head making me cry and wail even more for him to stop since I don’t know how badly I’m hurt. He only said that it was normally for my age and that I was still a virgin while he kept going and it seemed forever until he finishes and I get put back in my cage naked. I cry myself to asleep and the noise of helicopters but I can’t stretch out. This goes on for a week or so but the camp never moves so I don’t know why we haven’t been found yet even if Pennsylvania is somewhat forest but we are so close to the former town. I hate being a sex toy for Fueller and he is abusing so that I turn but I don’t. Things have to be happening.

•Sesshomaru’s POV•

I have agreed to show Luke where there town is even if it meant crossing something that they knew about. All what I could do is tell the name and the date besides what she looks like and who she should be with I just never thought they’d bring me with them after I talked to my father. Susana can protect herself so why should I protect her and why are they so worried about her. She has more powers than the other demon she was born to as a mother and a little more than our father. Sighing, I get and two of Susana’s fairies are here since I don’t think Haru and Takeo will be with her for much longer. Namid has a concerned look on her face.

“You guys need to move now,” she states. “The town was burnt down, she is in a cage that is too small for her, and is she moving so I think she is injured badly. Her tail is only moving but that is due to nerves.”

“Is she being guarded?” I ask.

“Most likely yes but she is in the center close to a small tent but the people that got her as Susana’s powers.”

“That is what we feared,” inputs Luke. “The Sith won’t stop to get her and their options is to get her young when she needs training otherwise it would be too hard for them. I don’t know who they ordered to capture her but her loved ones were wise to extended her training so she at least sensed them before they attacked.”

“She hasn’t got a weapon yet?” I ask.

“She’ll get one sooner or later but I’m thinking the mother told them to run since they would be sending a small army and she couldn’t take them now. You may think she is strong but she can’t utilize her force powers to the fullest since that has to come first before her demonic powers. In fact, right now she is probably being inhibited to get more training done with the other 2 you mentioned. She catered to them more than her even if she had a loose hand on Susana because she was very much didn’t want Susana to get stronger than her kids. But we don’t have time to talk about it now we should get going.”

We move fast but I think they realize we are onto them but I end up breaking from them to make sure Namid have stuff for healing. I hear rustling and what sounds like Susana calling for help.

•Susana’s POV•

It is night time and they are talking about a few things after I was raped again. Of course, I was in here for awhile after he was finished and now he is out so I’m glaring at him and they don’t know that I’m listening. I’m obviously nervous since I don’t what they have planned for much longer.

“Kill Haru and Takeo and hopefully that will make Susana change her side,” he states and something comes over me.

I blank out and I don’t remember much other yelling for help and killing anyone I that helped to capture me and my family that came tried to get me back. I must have been walking a short distance because I end up falling to the ground and the sound of a familiar name calling my name. I blink as if I’m regaining consciousness.

“Lady Inu-Susana,” states Namid since I’m looking at her and I see Sesshomaru looking in the direction. “Are you ok?”

“Haru and Takeo are in danger!” I blurt out. “The person who captured me is planning to kill them! They are like siblings to me.”

“I know but just answer me are you alright?”

“I don’t know. I can hardly move and I can’t feel anything from neck down!”

“Let me see her,” demands Sesshomaru and I hear him come up and I know he will be mad once he sees the damage. “Who did this to you?”

“They did. I tried to run like mom told me but they found out that we left and there was too many of them for me to fight off,” I state.

“Who are they?”

“Fueller and his men, they burnt down my town, killed mom, and gave me whatever is on my back.”

“First off Tabitha is not your mother, Gabriella is while my mom is your step-mom. I know you were a baby when we decide to let her train you but that was it.”

“Fueller raped me as well since I can’t move well after he burnt my back. Something is deeply damaged.”

“Namid, can you do anything to heal her?” asks Sesshomaru.

“No, the damage went to her nerves and they can’t be repaired no matter what. She won’t feel normally but if she can move without feeling then we need to look into someone helping her to move instead of her being immobile. I can only heal surface damage but not the nerves but it also has started to scar up and I can never get the scar to go away. Lord Sesshomaru, do you understand?”

“Yes, I do. Though, Luke will train her from now on. Also, Haru and Takeo will probably show their colors after this. But for now we need to go to Luke.”

Sesshomaru takes his top off and wraps it around me before I get picked up. I just get close to his chest since I’m still scared and he most realize that because of how he is carrying me as we head to a different direction that I came to but it is somewhat similar. He stops at a blonde person and he looks at us.

“They ran away,” he states not paying attention to me. “I don’t know where your sister…”

“She came to me,” snaps Sesshomaru making the guy turn around to see me.

“Sorry, but Haru and Takeo said they thought they took her away. I didn’t mean to get you angry but is she alright?”

“She has been injured badly that she can’t feel anything on her body and she said she’s been raped but Fueller.”

“We’ll take a look at her as soon as we can but we need to get her out of here. Did anyone of you see her move?”

“She was walking when she came up to us,” Namid states. “But she was angry and trying to get help that it turned her into a full demon and she may have turned a little bit to the dark side of the force but I wouldn’t know.”

“I’ll see but I won’t train her to fight until she can walk with the force since she has the potential to get back walking. But it that will probably be most of my training for months”

“Do what you have to so she can get better. But I do want to see her on occasion.”

“We’ll try to accommodate that request but it may be hard seeing how we are in outer space.”

“I’ll take what I can get but when she is done being checked out I want alone time with her.”

“Of course, what about you two are father?”

“He’s dead protecting a foolish human and a new pup.”

“Like Tabitha trying to protect me?” I pipe up.

“You could say that but I have more respect for her considering she is another demon. But you must not go years without seeing me there are rituals you’ll have to go through and I’ll need to see you in probably 2 years anyway with my mother.” At that, he licks my cheek before we start to go to a town nearby.

There we are in a hotel but they have paramedics there looking me over. It is a nice room but I don’t want to be prodded and poked which is what they are doing besides making sure everything is fine other than the scar. They are testing the severity of the damage, which they aren’t happy with since I’m not responding to anything other than my face and neck. They are waiting for me to say or something because they have a sharp stick and even on my tail, I can’t feel though they said it curled up from the prick. They stop testing after two hours and the nurse sighs.

“He certainly did a number on you,” she states. “Unless you are taught to walk through the force you will be immobile from the neck down and you can’t feel anything even if your tail reacted but we wanted more reaction especially on your legs and arms.”

“I see so do you have more tests?” I ask.

“No but food will come soon but I need to tell Luke and your brother”

She leaves and the food comes in right there and it is pretty much stuff I can float through the force to feed myself. At least I can manipulate something so I don’t die but if I weren’t force sensitive then this would be worse. After a short time Sesshomaru, Namid, and Yuko come in after hearing the news most likely. Yuko grabs my chicken that have floating in the air before grabbing the plate and sitting by me. Yuko and Namid are considered to be my servants and so far they are to follow me but Yuko is kind of the teacher for anything demon aristocracy and Namid well is like a second mother since she over sees my health and joins in fights. Yuko feeds me the food since it is over stepping her boundaries every looks at her.

“Yuko, let Inu-Susana feed herself with the force,” starts Sesshomaru. “And no arguing with me, you two are her only servants she has with her right now and it seems I cannot trust Haru and Takeo so when she is done training it is you two’s job that she doesn’t do anything stupid that could kill her. Her sense of touch is gone so any injuries could be worse than she realizes but also don’t limit her ability to fight. If anything, fight alongside her. Namid, for you that would be easy but you must be more on your toes incase she gets more severe injuries that cost her life. Yuko, as much you are to be a teacher and a liaison between her and the other demonic lord and ladies, if needed you are to protect her. If I hear you two aren’t doing your duties consequences will follow most likely your lives will be cut short.”

“Lord Sesshomaru, not to defy you but even if she can walk she should go back with you and wait for the change while you protect her,” replies Yuko.

“I’m going by fathers will plus her enemy now is on her kill list. She wants revenge for the town but she won’t go directly to him so I’m not stifling her and our father wanted her to at least know how to use the force for fighting. I’m not about to override that since it will be a great tool to for her. Over time, I will have to teach her about her demonic powers but that is when she has changed when she permanently moves to Feudal Japan. That won’t be for another 7 to 8 years for her during that time she at least needs to defend herself. Either way I heard she is almost done with all her lessons in our world, am I not correct? I know you were the one to actually stifle her training her otherwise she wouldn’t have been caught so easily and would have a lightsaber.”

“Namid!” yells Yuko. “That is true but fighting isn’t that important but she learned enough to protect…”

“No, she hasn’t and if you do that again, Yuko, you will not be alive,” mandates Sesshomaru.

“Lord Sesshomaru,” Namid interrupts.

“Yes, Namid?”

“Would it be wise if she got more training outside of Jedi so she’ll have basic knowledge of her demonic skills before she changes? It might make her stronger as well while she is different time periods.”

“Yes, but only I she wants it of things start to show that the powers are coming before the change. I’m glad you never interfered in her training though.”

“I was her sparring partner so I like to see her train even if Tabitha wasn’t doing lessons on controlling the force.”

“Ok, that is all so you two may leave now.”

Namid and Yuko leave while I finish up dinner, which I kept eating when they talked in front of me. Sesshomaru sits beside me waiting until I’m done eating so he could some demonic scent on me. It is he or my dad licking me all over even my injuries since they are worried that people will mistake me for another creature or human without it. I’m not fond of it since it quite rough especially Sesshomaru since dad said he is relatively young but both were inexperienced since I’m the only 1 they knew that needed this. The only good thing about it, their saliva kind of helps any wounds to heal faster so hopefully it helps my back. After an hour of him getting the scent all over me, we talk before I end up falling asleep on him since he positioned me on his lap.

Over the next following weeks, I get better even if I’m restricted to a bed but Sesshomaru had to leave after a few days. In a month, we left for the training facility, which took another month to get there even in hyperdrive after we left our planet system. Once there we all got trained and I was able to move through the force I just need to keep an eye on my tail since I can’t feel it anymore to know if it is wrapped around me, hanging between my legs, or moving. I did get an alien/wolf dog creature called Auwog that I end up calling Daisuke. I raised him as a pup after him mom died when she gave him to me. After Jedi, training Haru left with her boyfriend Kenta and Takeo just left with no warning. Both seem to hate me for some odd reason or another since they both attacked me when they left. I did get other training in martial arts and found other powers. I did get captured when I was training but after awhile I became stronger than Fueller did so that no longer was I Fueller’s captive.