Deserving by Oroyukae
Friends and More
Her eyes narrowed , unable to believe what she was seeing. Sesshoumaru was there in the parking lot of her shop - parked far to the back where the intense beaming light did not reach and he was sitting on the trunk of his car. He had not come in to tell her he was even there and while that was odd , the fact that he was sitting there swigging on a beer was even more so. Slowly she approached him , noting that his face showed signs of obvious distress. Stopping a foot or two from him , she realized he was more than distressed ...he was distraught as well. It clearly showed in his eyes as he tilted that bottle to his lips- head back and swallowing the intoxicating liquid that poured out.
" Sesshou...are you okay ?" she asked hesitantly out of concern he may become loud and belligerent in his inebriated state.
His glassy eyes rested on her and he squinted at her , " Kagome..what are you doing here ? Would you like a beer ? I have more..."
She watched him as he laid back upon the vehicle to reach his long arm into the backseat of the convertible and retrieve two long necks. Not wanting to offend him , she accepted his offer and twisted the cap off , climbing onto the vehicle with him since he had scooted over so she could anyway. She knew him well enough to interpret his actions as he had had a very bad night with HER...again. " What happened this time ?" she asked quietly , staring at the bottle in her hand.
He turned very solemn , his eyes taking on a sad and pained quality while he downed half of his freshened drink , " She started in again...what else? She does it a lot anymore , I think it gives her pleasure to cause me pain. " he replied in a deep tone that the long drink he had just taken was only partly responsible for.
" What did she say ?" she asked , though she already knew just what the heartless woman had said to her friend. It was always the same and it never failed to piss Kagome off that the woman would do and say such things to him. He was a decent and hardworking man , devoted to her - even if the witch did not deserve said devotion. Any other man would have left that wench long ago ...but not Sesshou. He had loved her once , a part of him still did and he honored the vows he took the day he married that woman. That fact alone said a great deal about his character and sense of morals , if you askedKagome.
" The same things she always says. I tried to be loving ...tried to please her ..she just -" he stopped , unable to finish. Recalling the things she had said just hurt too damn much...even if they were true. That was the most painful part ..everything she had said was true. He was useless...pathetic and should be pitied for his shortcomings. What good was he anyway - really ? Absolutely none at all. " She's right you know." He muttered
" Who is right ?" Kagome took a small drink , just to please her friend.As she lowered the bottle , her eyes widened in shock. " You don't mean Amaya , do you ? I should kick your ass for that buddy.Amaya is nothing more than a cold hearted , mean and cruel..."
" Kagome..please , she's my wife. " he said sadly.
" Well , I 'm sorry but the truth is the truth. I've been your friend for nearly a year now and I daresay that it gives me the right to say you're too good for her Sesshou. She's mean and nasty and ...ooh! Why do you defend her ? After all she's done and said to you ? " it really was aggravating , listening to him try and justify what that witch does. It may be true that she had never really officially met the woman in person , but she had had the displeasure [ not to mention shock ] of hearing just how the bitch treated the man sitting next to Kagome at that very minute - firsthand via the telephone.
" She never used to be ...before things went wrong. " he replied, even more depressed than he had been. " Besides , what good am I to any woman ? Huh? Think about it."
" How many of those beers have you had tonight?" she asked , eyes scrutinizing the way he was swaying as he sat beside her.
He seemed to be tallying up the total mentally , eyes turned to the left a bit " Several . " he said firmly.
Kagome removed his bottle from his hand and walked over to the dumpster , throwing both his and hers inside. " You are now cut off mister. Look at you , you can barely sit up. Where are your keys ? I'm taking you home. "
Sesshoumaru shook his head , fighting the urge to hurl at the sudden spinning said movement caused " No , I don't want you to be subjected to her sharp tongue. "
" Well , you can't drive yourself and you can't sleep in your car here in the lot. How about I take you to my place until you sober up and then you can go home ? Would that be better ?" she patted his pockets for his keys , not finding them . When she went to look inside the car , she found them to still be in the ignition. Kagome helped her friend into the passenger seat , securing him tightly with his seatbelt and ever thankful that they were in a convertible , just in case he upchucked on the way.
" I don't deserve a friend like you Kag..ome. How did I get so lucky?" Sesshoumaru laid his head back and closed his eyes.
" You had a sweet tooth and I make the best and only butterscotch brownies in the city. " Kagome pulled out of the lot , heading west toward her apartment. " And don't you ever let me hear you say you don't deserve a friend again, Sesshou...I'll have to kick your ass for it."
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Getting him into her apartment had not been a breeze to say the least , he was stumbling a bit and had to rest most of his weight upon her slight frame - very slow going as a result. Once she had him sitting there upon the sofa , Kagome headed straight to the kitchen and put on some coffee before heading back to check on her guest. She found him sitting with his head in his hands and trying to stop the room from spinning.
" Sesshou...why do you let her do this to you ? If she manages to get you so down on yourself that you drink to try and dull the pain...why not just end it? " she tried to be gentle as she asked him , not wanting to upset him .
" I ..don't know Kagome. I just don't know. I should..but , "
" Are you afraid of being alone ? Is that it? "
" Kind of . She's constantly telling me how pathetic I am , that no one but her would ever want me around due to ...the problem I have and she's right. " he exhaled slowly , trying to gain his bearings .
" That's ridiculous , it's not that big of a deal . " she huffed.
" Kagome...I haven't - how can you say that it is not important ? It is very important in a relationship ." he was astounded by her statement and he managed to look up at her - his face reflecting that response.
" I've told you before Sesshou , in a real productive relationship there are other ways to express intimacy that are just as strong and binding. "
He sat back against the sofa , eyes locked on hers , " So..what you are saying is if you were with a man for an extended period of time and he was unable to satisfy your ...needs in that area , it would not be an issue? At all?" he sounded doubtful as to her truthfulness in the matter , like she was just saying that to make him feel better and it pissed her off.
" Yes , that is what I am saying ! Damn it , I have been telling you that all along you idiot! Not all women judge a relationship based on that , some find the ability to communicate and emotionally support one another in times of crisis more important than the ability to perform in the bedroom.You just have to be patient and look for her . I'm going to get some coffee , I'll be back. " she got up and almost stormed off , leaving him to contemplate her words.
Once she returned , she was a little calmer and they sat and talked for a while about his relationship with his wife and how unhappy he always seems to be . It pained her to see him like that and she told him so , just as she had done for over six months - ever since she had first overheard the way Amaya treated him. Kagome could not stand to see a friend hurting and that was just what Sesshoumaru was doing , hurting.
Their conversation became so intense that Sesshoumaru had begun to get a headache and had to lie his head back to rest and ease the pounding . As he sat there , listening to her go on and on about how wonderful he was and how any woman would be lucky to have him , he found himself wishing that it were true - telling himself she was just biased because they were so closely associated . He shifted his long frame to a comfortable position and continued to rest , only half listening to her talk.
" Trust me Sesshou , I know these things. You told me that your problem started out gradual right after she started berating you for little inane things until finally ..." she furrowed her brows at him , laying there , arm behind his head and...snoring lightly. He had fallen asleep on her. Of all the nerve! Kagome entertained the thought of sticking his hand in warm water - just to teach him a lesson in paying attention but , the more she stared into his face as he slept , she discovered that her initial anger with the man was lessening. He seemed so peaceful , his face had softened and was serene. ' Probably the most peace he has had in quite some time.' she thought .
Kagome decided to get a jump on planning the next weeks' specials since she had nothing else to do. She would wake him up in a couple of hours so he could go home ...back to the witch lest he give her something else to bitch at him about. Some women just did not know when they had a good thing , maybe they were just too stupid to see it. Hell if it were her that had a man like Sesshoumaru , one who was attentive and loyal , hard working and trustworthy ..it wouldn't matter to her if he could not perform sexually . She'd still hang onto him for dear life and thank god for him every day he was with her.
Sadly though , she didn't have him and never would. He saw her as a friend and he was married to boot. Dedicated to a sham of a marriage to a woman that was ungrateful and hurtful , for whatever his reasons were , and she was left without. Not freakin fair at all.
Silently she worked , mapping out just what she planned to prepare for her customers the following week and trying to come up with a new item each day. Time ticked by and when she had her ' menu ' almost completed , she stretched and glanced at his sleeping face. Man , how she liked looking at him . ' Stop it ' she told herself in a scolding tone. He was her friend , her married friend and nothing more. Before the guy had fallen asleep on her , she was going to tell him about something she read on a website about how his problem could be psychosimatic - his minds' way of dealing with stress or an issue it finds unpleasant and maybe he could seek help from a pschologist to fix it. Sesshoumaru had told her he had only seen doctors that treat the medical aspects , not the mental ones.and she knew it to be because he found it unsettling to seek out such assistance. He would think it meant he was crazy or something. The fool .
Shaking her head and making a promise to herself to convince him to go at least for an initial consult [ she knew she could get him to do it too - she was just THAT annoying ] , she returned her attention to her menu. She needed one more special to complete the week. Remembering that she had some recipes bookmarked in a magazine she had bought , she began to search for it - she was always misplacing things. Thinking it to be in her magazine rack beside the sofa , she leaned over the arm of the sofa to search through the pile of magazines she had accumlulated - silently cursing that there were so many. Honestly , she really should throw them out .
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Sesshoumaru blinked , his eyes trying to become accustomed to the light and he realized he was not at home. Images of the incident with Amaya played before his eyes and he instantly remembered. She had started on him again and he had gone for a drive ending up at Kagomes' shop. Kagome , his good friend Kagome. She was always there for him when he needed her.
Taking a deep breath he heard Kagome muttering to herself and he turned his head toward her voice , his eyes widened in surprise to see her laying ass up over the end of the couch while she apparently searched for something. Did the girl not know that she was in a skirt ? He was about to make a rather embarrassing comment about that very fact but stopped. He quietly watched her , the way her rear swayed a bit with every movement she made , making that skirt of hers hike up just a bit , her black panties peeking out from under it. It was almost entrancing to watch really. At first , his mind chastized him for being such a perv - staring like that at his friend but then another train of thought took over. One that drowned out the previous one and dominated his consciousness.
He had never really noticed how round and firm her ass was until that moment , nor how long her legs were either. They seemed to go on for miles. He should not have been thinking any of that about the woman he called friend but , he could not help it. It was right there in his face and she had said earlier that she would not be put off by his problem , that there were other ways to express and indulge in intimacy. Would she stand by that if he were to...? No , he couldn't , he was a married man for gods' sake. Married for richer for poorer , in sickness and health....oh damn that ass. Kagome was such a sweet and kind , giving woman - so unlike his cold and cruel wife who berated and belittled him constantly . Kagome would not call him hurtful and vicious names .. she would not tell him he was useless and should be pitied. Not Kagome.
It had been so long since he had been intimate with any woman in any way , Amaya always laughed at him if he tried , saying it was pointless for him to even try at all- making him feel like less of a man in every way and he had thought of being with Kagome in that manner quite a few times , but telling himself she would never see him like that . However , as he watched her little rear sway this way and that , he recalled everything she had said to him earlier , and it made him dare to think that ... maybe.
Quietly he sat up keeping his eyes on that delightful ass of hers and slowly slid down the sofa until he was close enough to her to reach out and touch those globes if he wanted and....man did he want to. His hands shook a bit as he brought them up toward her , placing them on her skirt and sliding the material up to expose her entire behind to his starving eyes , his thumbs stroking small cirles in her flesh. Dear lord..she was wearing a thong. Oh how he loved thongs. Once he had the skirt high enough and could make sure it would not slide back down , he placed a hand on each cheek and squeezed firmly , enjoying the sight of her flesh in his grasp. The more he touched them though , the more he found he wanted to do even more ..he wanted to place his lips against them and delight in the taste of her flesh . H did not fight it for long and lowered his head to her , hearing a soft gasp from her when his lips made contact - but no protest of any kind was uttered. This was very encouraging to him. It told him she was very receptive to him and what he wished to do.
Sesshoumaru was really getting into what he was doing to her , utilizing his tongue to the fullest in worshiping her backside with reverence and growing enthusiasm .He used every tactic he had ever learned , nipping her delectable flesh with his teeth , sucking said flesh into his mouth and caressing it with his tongue then releasing it noisily and admiring the redness he left behind before moving on to another patch of untouched skin, and all the while his strong and powerful hands kneaded and squeezed those globe ever so urgently. Though he had started out very hesitantly , his confidence increased - enabling him to become comfortable with he fact that he could continue, to go even farther . He had been content with just touching her and placing soft gentle kisses upon her flesh but soon though he found that it was not enough , he wanted even more. While he bestowed hot open mouthed kisses upon every ounce of flesh his lips could find , Kagome would arch her back just enough that her clothed womanhood would raise up toward his scorching mouth and he was able to smell her arousal , thick and musky and calling out to him.
He wanted to do it , he wanted to so badly that he was literally shaking with his need to taste her and discover if he did indeed affect her like she was letting on though he knew his friend well and was fully aware that she would never be so deceptive as to pretend . Still , he so desperately needed the confirmation to ease his mind. Sesshoumaru silently said a few prayers as he pulled back , just a bit- and trained his sights on the target. She did not seem to have any objections , in fact - he could swear that he had heard her softly whisper words of encouragement to him - though, it could have just been his deprived mind that did it. He preferred to believe the first thought, it was far more encouraging to him at that crucial point in time. His trembling hands moved with infinite slowness in their journey to the desired destination , his objective whispered over and over as a mantra inside his head to strengthen his fragile resolve to see it through. If she stopped him , if she refused to allow him the chance - even politely , he knew it would devastate him and forever alter their cherished friendship he had held so dear - for he would never be able to face her.
His long fingers hooked into the band , slowly lowering those panties of her down over the roundness of her ass and exposing that which he sought.. a truly beautiful sight indeed. It was only a mild bit of a inconvenience to remove the thin bit of material from her body , but oh so worth it. Sesshoumaru shifted his position to one of easier access to her center , and he tentatively let his tongue snake out to run along her folds from front to back - unable to stop the moan that escaped him as her flavor hit his long deprived tongue. She tasted heavenly and he went back for more - setting up camp there and driving the girl insane with his talents that had went unused for so long.
Her response to him encouraged him , drove him to further his ministrations with eagerness and ever swelling pride in the fact that he could please her like he was. He had to be doing just that for her to reach her hand back and fist his silver hair in her hand like she did while grinding into his face in a slow but heated frenzy. He drove his tongue into her slick cavern , slick with her arousal that he had created. Him . Sesshoumaru Takahashi.. That fact fueled his need to see it through- to bring the woman responding so deliciously to him to completion so he would know it was true , that it was really happening and that he was not just dreaming it as he lay passed out upon her sofa in a drunken and pitiful state.
His tongue danced needfully and frantically upon her core, making her legs literally shake as he sought to bring her to the edge and cast her over , listening to her freefall in euphoric bliss . Oh how he longed to be looking up into her deep blue eyes when she fell so he could actually see it with his own two eyes , but he would not move an inch , not until his task was complete and she was left weak and quivering in the aftermath. Hearing it and feeling her satisfaction would be enough for him.
His strong fingers dug in to her flesh and opened her wide , furthering his access to her and he took full advantage of it . Sessh knew it would not be long and she would do it , Kagome would come for him.The beautiful woman whose scorching and quivering cavern he had his tongue buried in would attain that wonderful state of euphoria that , up until that moment , he could only have witnessed from memory. The anticipation of it had him more determined and excited than he had been in a very long time. The need to experience it again drove him on with unbridled vigor , to know once more what it felt like to bring a woman to completion- and not just any woman either . Oh no , he wanted to bring HER to completion . Her little body trembled and spasmed beneath his ministrations wonderfully , reacting just how he liked [ or how he used to like actually- it had been so very long for him] .Her breaths came in heavy pants , accentuated with tiny whimpers of appreciation and that was was he had needed- the one thing to boost his almost non existent ego and male pride.
He increased his attentions , his hands pulling her even closer to his marauding appendage and holding her firm as her body tensed - rigid as steel , and her fingers pulled his hair mercilessly . He was not about to let her go until it was over , enjoying the sweet nectar that flowed from her in appreciation for his actions. It was something he needed desperately, he just had to know that he was not useless and pathetic- that he did have something to offer a woman in that area other than just frustration .He had to restore his faith in himself and prove that he was still some sort of valuable male. When her body started to relax , he slowly released her - drawing back with a look of pure shock and disbelief that he had even done it . He sat there absently wiping his mouth with his hand and still , he could not believe it. She was his closest friend and he had just...oh god.
Kagome was still panting when she managed to regain enough strength to turn so she was facing him , immediately seeing his distress at what they had done. Apparently he was not comfortable with the fact they had just crossed the boundaries of friendship and she searched for a way to ease his mind on the subject.Before she had a chance to speak , he started apologizing to her and she started shaking her head.
" No Sesshou , don't be sorry. I'm not. I'm ..actually glad it happened." She said gently.
" Why?" he whispered in a pained voice. He feared what she would say then , thinking it would be because she had let him do what he did out of pity for him . That would totally destroy any positive effects that had managed to eek their way into his mind.
Softly she touched his cheek and stroked his flesh with her thumb , " Because , I have wanted you to do that for some time now. I didn't say anything because I did not want you to be uncomfortable in our relationship, I enjoy being around you and didn't want it to stop just because I was ..seeing you differently than before." She kept eye contact with him so he could see that she was being truthful with him and not just saying it to make him feel better about any of what had happened.
Silently he watched as she inched closer to him , uncertain of what she intended to do ...until she reached up and traced his still wet mouth with her fingertips . " Can I have a kiss , Sesshoumaru ? I have wanted to feel those lips of yours pressed to mine for some time now. " Closer and closer she moved until she was mere inches from his face , wating for him to make the next move.
He stared at her for a few moments , unsure and a bit confused as to what to do but , then his mind began reminding him that the girl had said she had wanted him to do it for some time. Was it possible that she had been attracted to him and he had never known it? He thought of his wife then and inwardly , he shuddered. There was absolutely no comparison between the woman that held his name ...and the one slowly taking hold of his heart. Kagome was the complete opposite of Amaya in every way imaginable. Kagome made him feel strong and powerful , like a true man - even if he could not love her in the traditional manner , he still had something to offer her in that department . And she was willing to let him do it too. She spoke kindly to him , not shrieking like some banshee and pointing out his shortcomings at high decibles for all to hear. She made him feel good about himself and confident as well. No , there was no comparison.
When did his hand manage to move up to her waist ? She was closer still , millimeters or less away from his lips that were yearning to press to hers and feel what she said she felt for him. Had she done it , or had he ? Did it really matter at that point ? Not really. Gingerly he pressed his lips to her , hearing her sigh softly and the courage he had felt moments ago surged upwards once more . Sesshoumaru pressed his lips to her more fimly , his hand sliding upward on her back and moving her even closer . Without even thinking about it , his tongue slid out of his mouth to touch the tip to her petals , ovrejoyed and encouraged when they parted in open invitation...he instantly R S V P 'd. There were no acccurate words to describe the feeling he got as her small hands started working the buttons of his shirt , and he definitely had no objections to it either. After what she had already given him , who was he to deny her?
" Sesshoumaru..." she breathed into their kiss , " Undress me. " She seemed to almost be pleading with him and oh , did it sound so nice.
" Yes." Was all he could manage to say , his voice so deep and needful. Just because he could not attain an erection , did not mean he felt no passion , no desire ... no lust. He did . Man did he ever. He needed her , desired her and it felt so wonderful . Urgent and shaking fingers grasped the hem of her blouse to quickly pull it up and off her body while hungry eyes gazed upon her full round bosom that was completely bare, making him raise his eyes to hers in question.
" I removed it while you were sleeping. It was bothering me." She offered in explanation . Kagome hated bras , finding them restrictive and uncomfortable.
He just nodded , returning his gaze to her other fleshy globes he quickly wished to taste. He must have unconsciously licked his lips or something because she instantly asked him to kiss them as well. He was not about to refuse , no way . A loud groan escaped him as he latched onto a very erect rose tipped orb [yet another sign she desired him ] and he immediately began sucking and gently biting her , reveling in the way she slipped her fingers into his hair and fisted them. She was quite a bit more vocal that time , moaning and whispering words of urgent encouragement to him , directing his every action for her maximum pleasure . Oh god , she sounded so much the vixen then.. it spurred him onward.
Kagome pulled back from him , desiring to inflict some attention herself . Her mouth was literally watering to taste his flesh and taste him she would. Slowly she slid his shirt off , staring deeply into his eyes and she started her own attack upon his senses - starting with his mouth. Her devious little tongue slid seductively into his mouth , caressing him thoroughly and making HIM moan. Then she trailed kisses across his jaw and to his ear where she licked the shell and whispered just how much she had wanted to do it. He shivered most deliciously then. From there she assaulted his neck with kisses and long strokes of her tongue - paired with the occasional nip here and there. Oh yes.
By the time she reached his shoulders and upper chest , he was panting and gripping her hips tightly , restraining his growing passion most valiantly , though it was a very intense struggle to do so. Finally , he allowed one hand to reciprocate the favor and it found the thick silkness of her raven locks, twining in their length and holding her to his quivering flesh , his eyes rolled upward - unable to stand the sensations brought on by her tongue upon his chest that traced the fine hard cut of his muscles..It had been so very long since he had had the experience that it almost felt like the very first time a woman had payed such homage to his body . His mind barely registered her words when she whispered to him the question if he liked what she was doing to him , accentuated by her tongue swirling then dipping into his navel, making his abdominals jump.
He did not notice that her hands had decided to busy themselves by unbuckling his belt and pulling his zipper down ...that was until the change in temperature alerted him to the fact. Instantly his eyes opened and they filled with both fear and embarrassment . Sesshoumaru pushed her back from him and stared down at her confused face , his chest heaving .
" What's wrong Sesshoumaru ? Why- Why did you stop me?" she sounded hurt by what he had done , her deep blue eyes reflecting just that.
He adverted his eyes , staring to his left and fought to repress the urge to just grab his shirt and flee the room . He could not find the words to express what he was feeling then , not wanting to ruin everything they had just shared - so much as it was. He had enjoyed the way she had payed attention to his body up to that point . It was more than he had had in some time. The fact was , he was just plain embarrassed to have her witness his humiliation and shame. Most of all , he did not want her in any way to feel like she was a failure at pleasing him , at arousing his desire ...it was not her fault and he would NOT have her thinking less of herself for it.
" Sesshou...it- it's okay. I'm not going to think bad of you . I just want to see all of you , that's all. You arouse me in oh so many ways...it doesn't matter to me. " she tried to assure him , even trying to touch him again , but he drew away from her.
" I-it ..isn't you Kagome. I won't have you thinking it is." He muttered , lowering his head in shame.
" I want to feel your magnificent body against mine , our hot flesh touching in every way ..." she inched back up to him slowly , her hands once more attempting to touch his chest and soothe his anxiety. That time , he let her. " Please Sesshoumaru....take them off. " she whispered , bestowing tiny but passion filled kisses upon his neck while her hands caressed his chest reverently .
" Why ? I can't please you like that." there was so much pain in his words , it almost made her cry.
" There are other ways that are just as pleasing Sesshoumaru..." Kagome took his left hand and brought it up to her divine lips , her tongue snaked out to lick a couple of his fingers seductively before drawing them into her hot oral cavern and sucking on them .
She then got up off the sofa , grabbed he throw from the back - as well as a couple of throw pillows and proceeded to make a pallet on the thick plush carpet. Once she was settled , she waited for him to join her with great anticipation- keeping her eyes off him so as not to make him any more self conscious. To her utter joy and delight , he did join her - butt assed naked too. Kagome damn near squealed in delight but..she contained it.
Sesshoumaru laid there beside her , not really knowing what to expect. Finally it dawned on him that she was waiting for him to make the first move and so , he reached a tentative arm out and pulled her closer to him , turning onto his side so he could stare into her eyes . What he saw swirling in the depth of those eyes that suddenly made his heart stop , it over whelmed him. He had not seen such intense passion nor desire before... not even in the time prior to the onset of his problem.Amaya never EVER looked at him like that.
Pushing all thoughts of HER from his mind , he concentrated on the girl that was right there with him , touching him with passion and reverence , pressing her oh so delicious body so close to his... it was almost like she was trying to absorb him into herself ...
His hands roamed her body , no formal destination in mind - just wanting to feel as much of her as they could . She moaned and whimpered as he continued to explore her , the need for him to touch her more intimately making her ache and burn most fiercely , thusly forcing her to take one of his delightfully cruel hands in hers and insist on it doing just that. Two strong and sure fingers parted her saturated folds , immediately finding her throbbing core and offering her some relief - something she was so grateful for . Sesshoumaru watched her intently as she writhed under his hand , mesmerized by every single expression that crossed her face. He still found it a bit amazing that she was so content with the limited amount of contact and he dared to let one long finger circle her opening - watching her face the entire time.
" Oh yes , Sesshou....p-please .. do it. " she moaned wantonly , her inner walls clenching in their attempt to draw that finger inside her and keep it there.
The second he obliged her , he rolled his eyes upward and groaned loudly . She was so damned tight , something he had not expected at all. Quickly he inserted two more devious digits to fill her as much as possible , the hold those walls had upon his fingers was almost painful and he found himself wishing with everything he had that he could experiece that tightness in the more traditional manner...even just once. He covered her mouth with his , slipping his eager tongue into her and mimicking the thrusting of his fingers , pretending. He envisioned himself perched above her , staring down into her pleasure filled face as he thrust his body into her in a most unforgiving manner , her entire body rocking violently from his actions. He allowed himself to hear her begging him to go harder and deeper , wanting him to fill her to capacity and make her scream.Harder he thrust those fingers into her , tasting her whimpers and cries of pleasure , knowing he would take her to the very place she wanted to be.
He pulled back from her , wanting to see her orgasm before his eyes , watching with almost baited breath. " Scream for me Kagome. Scream my name." he whispered harshly , his face taking on a determined look . He had to hear his name come from her as she hit her release. He needed to hear it from her , he would hear it from her. Sesshoumaru increased the force he used to drive those fingers up into her , his thumb pressing and rubbing on her swollen clit to heighten her pleasure and ensure he would get exactly what he wanted from her.
The louder she cried out to him , the more his desire grew and he was determined to witness her satifaction . It sent dlightful yet intense jolts of excitement through his entire body and he reveled in each one. He felt more alive than he had for a while and it was all because of her. The woman he was bringing such pleasure to at that very moment. She had done it all , and he only wanted to make her call out his name as he made her come harder than she had ever had in her life as testament to his ability to please her . Louder and louder she became as her ascension began , and he hoped that she would get so loud that even her neighbors would bear witness to it.
His eyes narrowed fiercely and he trained his ears on her voice " My name Kagome ..scream it. Scream ..my ..name.." he demanded of her.
He was unable to describe the sinful pride he felt when she gave him what he had asked for - no , commanded from her . It was sweet music to his ears , music he had dared to believe he would never hear again in his life. He had been wrong...about a great number of things. As he watched her spasm in the aftermath of her orgasm , he realized something that had him frozen in disbelief and shock. It wasn't possible.. It just wasn't possible.
Weakly , Kagome ran her hands over her face to remove the sweat - trying to take a few deep breaths to slow her heart down . She was barely able to register that her partner was not moving , but she did manage it. " Sesshou? Is there something wrong?" Stupid question really , the look on his face was obvious - or should have been anyway.
His eyes were as wide as they could get , his skin had paled and he was still yet to move a single muscle . Inside him , his mind was racing , as well as his heart. He thought he was imagining it , although he could not recall his imagination as being THAT good. He swallowed hard , the first movement he had made in many minutes..hell - his fingers were still buried inside her - he had been struck that paralyzed. " I'-I'm not sure." He whispered as if he were afraid to speak any louder.
" What is it? Did I do something wrong ?" Kagome scanned his face as she spoke , searching for the reason for his adverse reaction. She had to have done something to make him act like he was. Her mind assured her that she had called out the right name in her euphoria , so that could not be the problem.
" I am...aroused." He said simply.
Kagome sighed in relief , glad that it wasn't something she had done " Well , that's a good thing right ? It means you enjoyed it too." Her hand stroked his arm tenderly.
Slowly he shook his head and swallowed hard again. She wasn't understanding him. " No...I am " his eyes lowered down to the barely there space between their bodies. Apparently , his hand was preventing her from realizing just what he was trying to say to her. " AROUSED. " he stressed the word incredulously.
Kagome's eyes joined his and a look of awe spread across her face. He meant he was.." How?"
" I do not know." He honestly didn't . He had not been able to achieve something like that for a year or more and he was at a loss as to why he was , at the very minute , partially erect. It confused him AND excited him at the same time. However , he was a bit afraid that she would think he had been lying to her throughout their friendship about his being unable to attain that state of arousal. That and , if he moved...it could go away. Yeah , it was stupid , but it was still the truth.
" Uh..wh-what do we - hmm , well.." she stammered . She had several ideas on how to address the situation but was afraid to say them. How does one handle such an occurrence ?
" Touch me Kagome. " he said simply , still frozen.
" Oh-okay. You're going to have to move your hand ...so I can do it. " When he still failed to remove his hand , she reached down and did it for him .
Sesshoumaru waited for her to do it , to touch him in the one place he had denied her of earlier , his breath caught in his throat as she stroked his thigh lightly - deciding to move slowly. The sensation he felt when her fingertips glided across the head of his dick brought a hiss of satisfaction out of him. Gods , it felt so good. He was still only partially erect but it was encouraging. Kagome worked him gently but firmly , pumping him in her hand and making his legs shake just a bit.
Without warning , he regained the ability to move his body and before either one realized it , he was laying atop her , staring down into her face with his hips cradled by her thighs. He did not know if it would work or not , but he was going to try anyway. Wordlessly he raised up enough to take his member in his grasp and place himself at her entrace. She was tight and it was a fifty- fifty chance that he could even be able to get himself inside of her ...fifty percent was definitely better that no percent in his eyes. He looked to her eyes for her agreement for him to do it , not wanting to take liberties he shouldn't be - his eyes pleading with her to agree. She bit her lip and nodded her head , hope gleaming in her eyes. She wanted him to be able to do it and that was even more of a reason for him to try .
Pushing forward with his hips , he was able to get the tip inside with a bit of ease , his eyes had to close for a moment against the exquisite feeling being even that far in gave him. He could swear he felt himself harden even more ..oh yes. Pressing further , he managed to go in even more , almost to the midpoint and he groaned as her walls contracted around him.
" S-Sorry." She panted , her chest heaving slightly .
Sessh shook his head and replied tightly , " Don't be. It was..oh god... it was wonderful." He was beginning to pant a bit and sweat started forming on his brow. It was working , the tight fit of her walls , paired with how she gripped him tightly was working. He could feel his erection growing from inside of her. For the love of it all , he was achieving a full blown erection. He was able to get his full length inside her , though it was far from what it would be if things worked out right. If he did manage to reach his full size..she would be in for quite a pleasant and satisfying surprise to say the least. He could feel himself expanding ,growing with every passing second and stretching her as he did and from the look on her face , she liked it.
He lowered himself so he could kiss her lips , thrusting his tongue into her mouth slowly as a warning what would hopefully soon occur. He ground against her a couple of times as a sort of test , and could not prevent the growl like moan he made then. He slowly withdrew from her cavern then quickly thrust back inside - repeating the move several times and becoming more encouraged and confident with each one. It was going to work , it would happen - he would be able to make love to her like a man should .He could have shouted praises to the heavens at that point , but his mouth was very busy - so he said silent thank yous instead. He really had not idea as to just why he was finally able to do it , but he was not about to question it either. He was just grateful he could.
Kagome tried to remain passive , not wanting to risk doing anything that could end what they were attempting , knowing they both needed it to occur. She was finding it more and more difficult to remain motionless though , the feelings she was experiencing were far too exquisite to tolerate for much longer and she started to roll her hips a little - hoping he would not object ...he didn't. In fact , he told her to do it again and again.His thrusts grew ever more confident and forceful , his face a mask of fierce concentration - jaw set tight. It prompted her to reach up and stroke his cheek softly , wanting him to relax and enjoy himself as much as she was enjoying what he was doing to her . Sesshoumaru turned his face toward her hand , kissing her palm lovingly and with reverence before he lowered his head and upper body , pressing hard against her . His hot mouth placed scorching open kisses upon her neck , his tongue stroking her flesh . " Oh god , Kagome... you're tight ...so very tight." he almost growled against her skin.
" Maybe you're just so big ." she purred for him , making him groan again.
He was big , he knew it - but for some reason , to hear HER say it made it even more exciting - sending his ego soaring to never before reached levels and he increased his thrusts to make her whimper and cry out for him to go harder...just what he had longed to hear. The feel of her legs wrapped around his waist so tightly as he began to pound into her was indescribable in words , he had thought he would never again experience something like that again and the fact that it was her doing it ...he held on , feeling the spreading tightness in his groin and he was not ready for it to end yet. Who knew if he would be able to repeat the act he was indulging in again? It could just be a fluke that it had even happened and he needed to make it last. Unfortunately though , he could feel that it was just a matter of time and it would be over.
" Come Kagome...I need you to scream for me again...be-oh fuck! Before it..it's over. " he pleaded as he thrust his glistening , sweat covered body brutally into hers, the clenching of her walls upon his cock telling him she was getting close . " Scream..my name."
Kagome clung to him , her entire body ignited in an electric dance of erotic bliss . Long had she dreamed of being with him in such a manner and thinking it would never happen , only to be right there beneath him as he carried her closer to the precipice and ready to throw her over into completions' vicious and vengeful embrace. " Oh Sesshou..." she moaned , her voice growing louder as she drew ever near the mutual destination the both crabed and shared a desperate and all encompassing desire to reach , " Please..Sessh.. yes! Oh for the love of...yes ! " her chest heaved , unable to get enough air into her lungs and she almost started to cry from the sensations that attacked her viciously and without mercy.
The sound of her beautiful voice screaming out his very name as she exploded into blissful euphoric oblivion forced him into his own intense and brutal release as well. His entire person tensed as steel and he would swear that he felt like he had been pricked with thousands of tiny pins - only to have the pricks instantly filled with warm light to radiate inward into his whole body and soul. Never had he experienced anything close to what he did then , and he wondered if he ever would again. While his body shook with aftershocks from the intensity of his orgasm , he knew he was at that point addicted to the sensations , to her and he would have to have her from that moment on. No one else would do and he was not going to try to settle for anyone less. She was it.
When he regained his strength enough to move , Sesshoumaru rolled off her still shaking body , pulling her with him so he could hold her close . It had been her that had done it. She had managed to rid him of what had plagued him for so long and had held him in his depressive and seemingly hopeless existence and she would not get away from him ...ever.
" Sesshoumaru?" she whispered.
" Hmm?" he buried his face into her long damp hair , enjoying the feel .
" I-..what does this mean ? " she almost did not ask , afraid to even imagine what he would say. In all fairness , he WAS a married man and in the past he had been unwilling to leave Amaya no matter what she did to him.Kagome knew she could not tolerate it if he decided to stay with that woman after what they had just done together.
" What do you want it to mean , Kagome? You did something that I never thought could be done...that I was forced to endure the humiliation of it for the rest of my life. I ..want you to be with me , always. Not just because ...well ,you know. I enjoy your company , spending time with you and just hearing your voice , why do you think I was always showing up at your shop ? The butterscotch brownies aren't that good." He chuckled into her hair and he felt her tense.
" Okay , so maybe they are but my point remains. Kagome , you have been my friend for some time now and ...out of that friendship something grew for whatever reason you wanted to be more than a friend to me even knowing about my...issue. That says something about how strongly you felt for me as well as the fact that you were such a good friend." Sesshoumaru shifted a bit , thinking she was a bit uncomfortable being held so tightly.
" There wasn't a day that went by that I did not find it so unfair that you were with someone so ungrateful , so vicious and mean. She didn't deserve you ..she still doesn't. Hell , the truth be known , she was the cause of your problem to start with. Tel me you're not going to give her any more chances Sesshou...please . You can do so much better than her." She gazed into his eyes , her own filling with tears just thinking about him returning to that bitch thinking he could change her now that his problem had been corrected.
" I don' t know if it has been permanantly resolved ... it could have just been this one time out of my desire to be with you like that as well as my own need to be a whole man again. " he replied hesitantly , a bit of fear mixed in.
" I don't care about that. She DOESN'T deserve you. Please...you can find a woman to love you just how you are ..you don't need to settle for her. Please , don't go back to her ..." she started to cry then , upset beyond tolerance- thinking he would do it . He would go back to Amaya and resume being hurt and miserable.
Sesshoumaru lifted her head up and softly kissed her lipis , " Look at me . " he whispered urgently , making her do just what he asked. " I have a woman to love me no matter what ...and it isn't HER. If- if you agree Kagome , I want to .." why the hell couldn't he say it? He had never had any problem talking to her before , damn it.He cleared his throat and tried again , " I want to have a relationship with you...I want you to be the one waiting for me when I come home from a hard day and make it all better with your warm embrace. Do you want to be there waiting for me Kagome? "
She cried harder then , only her tears were ones of happiness and relief. She was so relieved that he was not going to try to make it work with Amaya and leave her alone and hurting for him and she was happy that he WANTED her to be the one waiting for him at the end of the day. " Oh Sesshou..." she pulled him into a kiss that revealed her emotions to him .
He smirked against her lips , playfully asking her " So..Is that a yes ?"
" It's a ' HELL YES '! " she muttered right back with a chuckle. Their kiss resumed , deeping and growing more passionate and intense - fueled by the way the groped each other urgently . After a few minutes he tore his mouth away from hers and kissed her jaw line on his way to her ear , making her whimper delightfully.
" Kagome..." he whispered .
" Yes?" she was starting to pant from his attentions , nuzzling his cheek .
" I don't think it was just a one time thing..." and just so she was clear on what he was referring to - he ground himself against her so she would notice his rapidly hardening member that had apparently decided to show off for his ' friend ' in the most delicious of ways.
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