Wow.totally felt entirely too real to me! I've never even gone through something like that! But the heartache and desperation is a expressed so acutely! It's just almost indescribable. I'll admit it, I bawled!! I hinestly wasnt expecting much when i saw hownshort it was. But it's a fantastic story and encompassed so much in so little without taking anything away!! I applaud you! Not many could have pulled this off, but you did so beautifully!! Brava!!
I hope I never have to experience the loss of my husband, but I lost my mom just last year and I remember my daughter coming into my room and telling me that her grandma didn't "look" right. She wouldn't go in when grandma slept, instead she relied on her eyesight to see if mom was breathing.
I remember the first thing I wanted to do was to scream and cry out but instead I just knelt down and touched her cooling face and then I lifted her eyelids to see her eyes were fixed and unmoving. I reached over to her dresser and took the stephescope from her blood pressure kit and put it to her heart and with no breath sounds a single tear fell and I asked her why she left me. I still wanted her with me, I needed her.
My husband, daughter and I all knelt and prayed and asked God to recieve her into His hands and I knew she was already there. but it felt right to ask anyway. I thanked God for all the time He gave me with her and asked forgiveness for the times when taking care of her was too painful for me and I would get angry with her because she was giving up on life.
Everytime I'm home alone, I still cry out to her and at times when I'm drawn to sobs and hiccups I hear her say, "It's alright, Honey, I love you and you have your husband and daughter who need you now. I'm with you always. You carry me in your heart, in your blood. "
Yeah, Sweetie, you wrote this just fine. I haven't told anyone about that night...I'm sorry for that. I shouldn't have burdened you with this, but your fic touched me sooo very deeply. You Know, I still have her room just as it was. I gave away most all her clothes, but the rest...it still hurts and my doctor said everyone grieves in their own way and in their own time. Kagome isn't losing touch with her children and the importance of showing them her strength, so dream alittle dream; dream and as many as you wish dear Kagome. There is no rule that says you can't stay married to your mate/husband that has died and not still have a full and happy life.
Thanks for listening. JEN p.s. you can delete this if you feel it's not appropriate as a review.
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