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She would never forget. She had been coming down to the parl
or at Wyckerly, eagerly
anticipating another outing with her brother and his friend, their neighbor Edward Havens.
Edward, whose fair hair and deep blue eyes made her giddy, whose smiles and clever
words she savored in memory, over and over.
“So,” she had
heard Charlie say, “What do you think of my sister?”
Heart pounding, she had paused outside the door, breathless to hear how her hero
would reply. Did he,
could
he, hold her in some esteem? The moment had stretched as she
hovered, waiting. She still recall
ed it with perfect clarity
–
the dust motes hanging in the
air, the smell of lilacs and lemon polish, the uncomfortably tight fit of her boots.
Then Edward had spoken, and all her delight had come crashing down.
She stared at him now, his face half
-
shadowe
d in the flickering candle light.
“Let me refresh your memory,” she said. “You said I was
regrettably bookish and
plain, with very little to recommend me apart from an annoying tendency to interfere where
not wanted.”
The words were burned into her soul. W
ith those few sentences, her girlish yearnings
had been shattered, twisted into a sour reflection of her own shortcomings.
His eyes widened. “That was years ago. You’ve changed.”
“Not significantly.” She swallowed back bitter tears. “Now, if you will
excuse me, I
shall leave your study, and you, in peace.”
She brushed past him, trying not to show how her hands shook. He did not try to stop
her, did not catch her arm or call her back as she fled.
Returning to the ballroom was out of the question. No, sh
e needed air, and quiet, and
time to purge her memory of that terrible, wonderful kiss.
Edward had not meant anything by it
–
she understood that, deep inside. Yet part of her
still wanted to believe he had kissed her because she was
herself
, Miranda Price
, bookish
and plain and interfering as she might be.
Not simply because she was anyone but Miss Davenport.
Vision blurred by unshed tears, she hurried along the hall and pushed open the side
door leading into the garden. The night breeze cooled her flushe
d cheeks, and the dimness
enfolded her. Only a last bit of twilight hung silver in the western sky. From the forest
beyond, a bird called once, twice, then fell silent. The flowers were all closed, except for
the roses. Miranda crossed her arms and tried t
o take a deep breath. It took three tries
before she could inhale past the tightness in her chest.
She would stay out here, in the dusk garden, until she had composed herself.
Then she
would find Charlie and tell him she felt unwell and was leaving. Yes
–
that was the best
course. She could not remain here, could not watch as Leticia Davenport paraded her
conquest about the ballroom.
Especially not with the memory of Edward’s kiss still tingling her lips. Much as she
tried, she knew it was a kiss she would
never forget.
Edward’s head buzzed, and he ran one hand through his hair, tugging at the roots.
What the devil had possessed him to kiss Miranda?
Had his time in London truly changed him into the jaded rake she believed him to be?