Put this up on another site in 2004. Just puttin it up again to get my creative juices flowing again.
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I know he hasn't said it,
But I know that they are there.
I say them repeatedly,
As I pull his hair.
He thrusts into me harder,
As I scream his name.
I see bright yellow stars,
As soon as I came.
He comes too,
And slows down his pace.
I open my eyes and look at him.
There is no emotion on his face.
He gets off of me,
And immediately he rolls over.
Maybe he isn't feeling well.
I just wanna make him feel better.
I roll him over and look in his eyes.
I see all anxiety.
Asked him what was wrong,
Hoping it wasnt what I thought it was.
Taking a deep breath he told me,
What was bothering him.
The reason he never says those three little words....
He looks deep into my eyes.
A tear rolls down his cheek.
"Kagome" he says.
"Tell me" I say.
"I've done a terrible thing."
"Well tell me and I'm sure I'd understand."
Then he got up and took me by the hand.
"There's something you should know.
Remember the girl named kikyo?
Well we were walking through the park.
It was late so it was dark.
And it began to thunderstorm.
And my dorm was closer than her dorm."
He took a breath and started again.
"I really wanted to be a gentlemen.
I wanted her to be comfortable.
Made sure she was cozy and warm.
I guess she got the wrong idea,
and thought I was leading her on.
We did some things we didn't mean
And I admit I was wrong"
"Oh my god." I said.
"Are you kidding me?"
I yanked my hand away from him,
and pushed him away from me.
"I can't believe your telling me this,
like we never had any relationship.
I can't believe your doing this to me!
And again you slept with that thing!"
Too furious to think.
Too furious to care.
I grab my clothes and put them on.
Yelled a "Fuck You Inuyasha!" and "I'm going home!"
I'm on my way home and cant handle it.
I needed someone to talk to and really quick.
I know where I am going,
and with a shake of my head I mutter "shit,
I am such a hypocrite..."
With a drive to his house and a knock on his door
A tear rolls down and hits the floor
He steps to the side and lets me in
With a blank expression he starts for the kitchen
In his eyes I look for pity
Only to find a trace of anger
"Why do you continue to torture yourself?
What I have is not sufficient enough for you?
Keep on this track and you wont even have me."
He gave a hit of emotion as I put my head down
I sobbed, choking on my own self pity
It was a disease
Like getting on a train and riding past your stop
Im on a track with an ending destination of self-destruction
Soon it will be too late and no train to take me back
So I took the love than was willingly given
By a demon who has it on the inside and doesnt need to say it
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Tell me what you think. Remember its just a warm up.
Mirokuschildbarer
aka
Danielle