Over and Over
*Songfic* What happens when you can't stop thinking of the one you love? What happens when she end up in someone else's arms?
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or this song.
Song: Over and Over by Nelly
Over And Over (Part One)
"Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again And I can't keep picturing you with him And it hurts so bad, yeah. Cause it's all in my head. I think about it over and over again. I replay it over and over again And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it. Nooo"
He still couldn't believe what he was seeing, even though it had been months, the sight of them angered him so. His clawed hands clenched into fists, the urge to punch a hole in the window was very strong as it was to punch a hole through his younger brother's stomach. Both held appeal, but the raven haired women stopped him from doing either.
Kagome was her given name, but he never used it. To him she was Gome, his women, his world, his heart. Sesshoumaru continued to stare at the laughing couple in the pool, he remembered when that was he with Kagome by the poolside but alas now it was Inuyasha.
Sesshoumaru shook his head to see if the image would go away, but it did not and that pained him. 'This Sesshoumaru screwed up and now the half-breed has my woman and he makes her happy. That's what this Sesshoumaru should be doing… not him.' Disgust ran over his handsome face as he quickly turned around, heading toward the kitchen for his daily coffee and newspaper.
"I can't wait to see you. Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes. That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes And it's a shame that we got to spend our time Being mad about the same things. Over and over the same and over I think she's leaving. Ooh man she's leaving. I don't know what else to do (I Can't go on not loving you) "
Kagome wrapped a big green fluffy towel around her and pushed her sunglasses on top of her raven head. She was thirsty and there was no bottled water in the mini fridge. She would have to go into the house. Kagome shivered hugging herself slightly 'I hate coming in here. Damn, it's creepy.' She slid open the door and stepped into the eerily glow of the hallway, making her way to the kitchen as fast as she could.
When she came to the kitchen, she froze in her spot, nothing in the world could make her move. There at the kitchen table sat Sesshoumaru, the first man she ever loved and her boyfriend's brother. God, how ironic to have broken it off with one brother and end up with the other. Fates cruel joke, only Kagome wasn't laughing, on the contrary, she was weeping with sorrow and soon to drown in her heartbreak. Her heart began to thump loudly in her chest, her breathing becoming short and erratic.
Sesshoumaru looked up from what he was reading, his eyes clashing with a shocking blue.
Kagome stared from the doorway of the kitchen into those amber eyes, the fire burning her with the same flames it had once before. She continued to watch stuck in what seem like some type of dream. She missed that look, the gods did she miss it. She missed everything, regret and loss flashed through eyes breaking the spell. She quickly turned her gaze away walking passed him to grab her water and quickly heading out of the room, but not before glancing over her shoulder and looking in his molten pools one more time. 'Sesshoumaru'
"Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again. And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah. Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again. I replay it over and over again yeah. And I can't take it yeah I can't shake it. Nooo."
She took several deep breaths, trying to calm her raging emotions. Kagome knew she couldn't go back out by Inuyasha like this. He would ask questions, ones she did not want to answer.
Taking another deep breath, she started to slow her racing pulse. Gods, she could still feel the heat of his gaze. He was the only one whoever looked at her like that, not even Inuyasha watched her with that much passion. The urge to cry was strong, she had believed that passion would last forever but alas it did not. Some things were more important, there was always something more important.
"I remember the day you left. I remember the last breath you took right in front of me. When you said that you would leave. I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you or say anything But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keep playing in my head. Over and over my and over . I think she's leaving. Ooh man she's leaving. I don't know what else to do(I Can't go on not loving you)"
Sesshoumaru couldn't move. He just sat there, his eyes refusing to sway from the doorway. The memory about the night that had changed everything washed over him like a tidal wave.
FLASH BACK
Kagome's tears ran down her face as she tried to talk calmly with Sesshoumaru "Sesshou you know I love you, but you have no time for me anymore, it's all about work now and I'm left out in the cold." She waited for him to respond back but he didn't. Kagome glared at him "Damn it will you say something!"
Sesshoumaru stared expressionlessly at her "Kagome stop this nonsense at once."
Fire blazed in Kagome's eyes "Sesshou I am not a child, you will not speak to me like that."
"I will speak to you the way I want to." He replied rather icily
"No, you won't. I'm not one of your employees you can push around. Don't you love me anymore Sesshou or is work more important than me?" More tears spilled from her large blue eyes.
Sesshoumaru was getting tired of this whole thing and decided he didn't want to talk about it right now "Kagome we will talk about this later I have work to do. Now if you don't mind you may leave."
Something in Kagome snapped, "Yes Sesshou I will leave, but there will be no talking later. I am done with this. I am not going to sit around and be alone through this whole relationship. We're over Sesshou do you hear me OVER. Now if you don't mind, I am leaving." She took a deep breath, tears streaming down her cheeks "Goodbye Sesshou."
Sesshoumaru watched Kagome as she opened the door and walked out. He stared at the door for a couple of minutes his heart telling him to go after her, but his mind was stronger and told him she wasn't worth it.
End Flashback
Sesshoumaru stood up and stared out of the kitchen window. He watched as Kagome lay down on a lounge chair with her sunglasses covering her eyes. How could he have been so blind? He had let the best thing walk out of his life. Why did he not go after? She was worth every breath that he took. Gods, he was such a fool. She held him bewitched with her beauty. He was more than a fool not even a fool would leave this woman.
Sesshoumaru turned away from the window, he grabbed his keys off the hook and headed to the front door wishing that Kagome were his once again.
"Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again. And I can't keep picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad, yeah. Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again. I replay it over and over again. And I can't take it I can't shake it. Nooo. (Now that I've realized that I'm going down
From all this pain you've put me through Every time I close my eyes I lock it down oh I can't go on not loving you)"
Kagome lifted up her shades to see perfect silver hair pass the window. A lone tear escaped and ran down her delicate cheek. 'I miss you Sesshou more than you know' She quickly wiped it away and replaced her shades turning her attention back to Inuyasha. 'But I'm with Inuyasha now.'
"Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again. And I can't keep picturing you with him And it hurts so bad, yeah. Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again. I replay it over and over again. And I can't take it I can't shake it. Nooo. Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again. And I can't keep picturing you with him. And it hurts so bad, yeah. Cause its all in my head. I think about it over and over again. I replay it over and over again. And I can't take it I can't shake it. and Over and Over again. Cause it's all in my head"
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