Hi everyone! I wanted to touch base with you all and give a few warnings about this story, so PLEASE READ THIS AUTHOR'S NOTE!! You can ignore any after this if you wish, but please take the time to read this one. This story is going to be very dark for some time. In the next chapter Sesshoumaru is going to rape Kagome brutally, and in many chapters after that. Throughout much of this tale he will whip her, rape her (vaginally and anally), publically shame her, hit her, bite her, and use her feelings for others to threaten her. He will wage psychological warfare on Kagome, and he will do his best to break her. He won't succeed, but he'll come close. This is not C&C, and it will be A LONG time before any feelings of love come about on either side. If any of that disturbs you READ NO FURTHER! In the end Sesshoumaru and Kagome will find love, but the end is a long way off. This will be as long if not longer than C&C so it will be awhile. Also, I have no intention of Kagome getting Stockholm Syndrome or anything like that. This story is about Sesshoumaru learning to love and to shed his prejudices and narcissism, and about Kagome's ability to love and forgive. It will be an intensely emotional story and if you can't handle that you need to look elsewhere for fanfiction better suited to your tastes. TRUST YOUR OWN JUDGMENT! I will place a warning at the beginning of chapters with rape and torture, but other than that it is up to you to decide what you can handle and what you can't.
Thank you and I hope those that are still in for the ride enjoy!
Chapter 2
A few hours later Sesshoumaru landed in the courtyard of his palace. Wasting no time he strode towards his chambers; dragging a reluctant and loudly protesting Kagome behind him. None of the servants or soldiers he passed along the way made mention of the struggling human. He acknowledged no one save Jaken who he instructed to send several youkai handmaids to his chamber to bathe and ready the girl. Stepping into his room he threw Kagome to the floor as he strode to a chest along the wall. Reaching inside he grabbed the item he had procured some weeks ago before turning around to face his prize. She had regained her feet and was eyeing him warily.
"Come here bitch."
Kagome gaped at Sesshoumaru before steeling her eyes and clenching her fists. She had already decided that she would fight. She knew she wouldn't stand a chance, but she wasn't going to go down without a fight. 'He'll win, but at least I'll always be able to say that I went down fighting.' Firm in her decision she lifted her chin defiantly and said, "Fuck you."
His eyes bleeding red Sesshoumaru gripped the item in his hand and took a threatening step forward as he said, "Bitch do not be so foolish as to believe that you have any hope of escaping me. Inuyasha abandoned you, and now you belong to me. Everything you are is mine! Today is the day you lose your innocence and learn what it is to take a man inside your body...to take me inside your body. Obey me and you might enjoy it after your sheath becomes accustomed to my size; fight me and you will know pain beyond imagining. Now...come here."
Forcing back her fear Kagome began to edge towards the door as she hissed, "You will never own me!" Spinning about she made a dash for the door but was stopped short as Sesshoumaru's clawed hand gripped her hair and yanked her back against his chest.
"You will learn to obey bitch!" With that Sesshoumaru tossed Kagome to the bed; knocking the air from her. Before she had the chance to move he was straddling her body. Using one hand he grabbed both of her wrists and held them down over her head as he used the other to show Kagome the item he had retrieved from the chest.
Kagome's eyes widened in horror as she took in the sight of the delicate silver collar Sesshoumaru brandished in front of her. "N..no...."
"Yes," Sesshoumaru hissed mercilessly. He set the collar on the bed so he could move his bitch's long hair from her neck. Picking the collar up he smirked at her and said, "I was kind enough to ensure the youkai witch that forged this for you made sure it would compliment your features. I will accept your gratitude now."
Kagome began to thrash beneath Sesshoumaru as she screamed, "Go to hell! Get off me! Help! Somebody help me!" Struggling madly Kagome didn't notice as her body began to glow when her miko powers rose to help defend her.
Sesshoumaru noticed though. Hissing he wasted no more time and slapped the color around Kagome's neck. The collar was magical so the open ends immediately melded together once the silver touched Kagome's skin; becoming one smooth piece of jewelry. The collar activated at once and glowed a bright red, forcing Kagome's powers back within her body. "Bad bitch. You will pay for trying to harm your alpha."
Her body arched as she felt her holy powers forcibly shoved back inside her. 'It hurts! What's happening? It burns!' Her body began to convulse as her powers need to defend her against the threat above her and the youkai magic of the collar battled for supremacy.
Grinning, Sesshoumaru watched his bitch's struggle to free herself from the magic of the collar, but he knew it would be fruitless. He had traveled to the continent to seek out a youkai sorceress that had been ancient in his father's days as a pup. She was considered one of the most powerful youkai in the world and he knew Kagome had no hope of escaping the collar's magic. While his bitch's power was immense she was untrained. She hadn't the skill or discipline to focus her reiki and as such she would never be able to break through the complex magic of the collar. "Stop struggling bitch. You haven't the power to remove the collar. You are only hurting yourself."
Kagome continue to fight for several more minutes. Every second was pure agony as she shoved her powers against the magic of the collar. Finally her tiny body could endure no more and she collapsed against the bed and stared up at Sesshoumaru with pain filled eyes as she begged, "Please...please don't do this...please let me go."
Chuckling softly Sesshoumaru leaned down so that his breath whispered across the soft skin of Kagome's cheek. "Let you go? Never. YOU. ARE. MINE."
Hearing the tentative knock at the door Sesshoumaru stood from the bed and dragged Kagome with him by her hair. He ignored her blunt human nails as they dug into the skin of his hand as she tried to pry his fingers from her long locks. Toeing open the door he shoved his bitch into the arms of the two youkai handmaids that stood beside Jaken. "Bathe her and prepare her for the mating. Jaken...keep Rin occupied and do not let her near my rooms."
"Yes Sesshoumaru-sama," Jaken said as he bowed before excusing himself as the maids began dragging Kagome towards the Lord's bathing chamber.
"NO! Stop! Let me go!" Kagome screamed as the hand maids forced her into a chamber housing a large natural hot spring.
"Be quiet human! Do you not realize the honor our Lord bestows on you? You are nothing but a filthy ningen. Unworthy of our lord, but supposedly you have the power to birth him full youkai sons. Keep your trap shut and do as he says," hissed one of the handmaids as she ripped her claws down the front of Kagome's school uniform, shredding the cloth easily.
The other handmaid giggled as she too helped divest Kagome of her clothing in a rough manner. "Yes...maybe if you're really good and lie perfectly still he won't rip you apart when he mounts you, though I rather doubt it. You are so very small and everyone in the castle has heard many of the demonesses our Lord beds scream in pain from his rutting. Our Lord's concubines say his cock is quite frightening in its length and size. I doubt a tiny human like you will ever be able to take him without knowing pain."
Kagome didn't even have time to gasp in outrage at the crude words of the youkai women handling her so brutally before she found herself shoved backwards into the hot water. She came up sputtering. "Stop! Let me go! You can't...."
"Be quiet!" Snarled one of the women as she grabbed Kagome by the shoulders and hauled her to the side of the hot spring. Together the two women made quick work of scrubbing Kagome thoroughly. In their opinion the girl positively reeked of their lord's filthy half breed brother. It was no wonder he wanted the onna bathed before he rutted her.
Kagome tried to fight them off, but it was no use. The women were far too strong for her to beat, especially with the collar forcing her holy powers down. 'This can't be happening! He can't really mean to....no...no, no, no, NO! Kamis help me!'
Back in his chambers Sesshoumaru had divested himself of his armor and clothing and wore only a pair of simple white hakamas. He stood on his balcony staring out over his castle grounds. With each passing second he felt his anticipation build more and more. Strangely he found that he was excited not only by the fact that he was about to fulfill an ancient youkai prophesy, but that he was going to claim Kagome herself. During the years he had spent learning so much about her he had found that she intrigued him more than any other creature. While he still viewed her as a pathetic human, and she was only a means to an end for him, he could admit to himself that he enjoyed the moments of interest and fascination she brought him. At his age and with his experience it was rare to find something that provided continual interest.
'After I have sufficiently broken her and taught her obedience I will enjoy speaking with her about the things she has seen in the future. Her knowledge of what will come to pass will benefit me greatly. Yes, taking the miko for my mate will provide me with many advantages. Not only will she give me pleasure and strong sons, but she will keep my mind occupied with her knowledge of the future.'
Grinning to himself Sesshoumaru turned from the balcony and moved to lounge languidly on his bed to await the arrival of his future mate. It was only mid afternoon but he knew he and his bitch would not be leaving their chambers for some time. He intended to sate himself with the onna's body again and again until she lost consciousness. Should she fail to satisfy all of his carnal lusts he would leave her in his bed to go to his harem. He had many concubines and any one of them would bear the brunt of his sexual frustrations should Kagome fail to please him fully. He gave a brief thought about having Kagome sent from his rooms and sending for a concubine should such a thing occur, but quickly dismissed the idea.
'She will not leave this room until she learns her place. Not to mention now that I have bound her powers she is truly helpless. She will never leave the safety of our rooms unless she is at my side or accompanied by my most trusted guards. Also, despite everything she will be my mate and her place is beside me. I will break her and remake her to please me fully.' The more he thought about this the more he was certain that taking the little onna as his mate would be one of the best decisions he'd ever made. 'I despise her humanity, but her power more than makes up for it. I can also admit that physically she pleases me. Her body is weak, but I am only interested in what lies between her thighs. Though with her feisty nature I doubt she will disappoint. I bet she will give me quite a ride.' Smirking Sesshoumaru felt his manhood throb painfully as he waited for his bitch.
Away from the castle Inuyasha stood with Kikyo beside him as he faced the wrath of his friends. Shippo had demanded that they go straight to Mushin's shrine to tell the other's what had happened. He'd threatened Inuyasha that if he wasn't man enough to do it he'd leave on his own and find them himself to tell them. Inuyasha not only didn't want the runt traveling by himself since he was too young to defend himself and Kagome truly would never forgive him should something happen to her kit, but he wanted to be there to explain himself to his friends.
"You did WHAT!" screamed Sango as she glared daggers at the hanyou before her.
"He traded Kagome for Kikyo! He just gave her to Sesshoumaru!" Shippo accused angrily from his place on Miroku's shoulder. The kit was beyond outraged and he was very glad that he finally had some allies against the hanyou.
"Inuyasha...tell us this isn't true," Miroku pleaded. Of course with the now living Kikyo before him there was very little hope of that.
Inuyasha ducked his head and squeezed Kikyo's hand as he whispered, "I...I had no choice..."
"NO CHOICE! Of course you had a choice Inuyasha! You had the choice not to betray and abandon Kagome! KAGOME! Who has stood beside you, fought beside you, sacrificed her life and happiness for you time and again, and believed in you when no one else did! Not even Kikyo has done that! Did Kikyo ever throw herself in front of an arrow for you? NO! But she pinned you to a tree with one! She's betrayed us all to Naraku time and again! She's tried to kill Kagome more than once! And you trade Kagome to your human hating brother for her? Are you insane!" Sango's face had become redder and redder as she screamed at the hanyou before her, and at the moment she wanted nothing more than to slaughter him for what he had done to her sister.
Inuyasha visibly flinched at Sango's words. Forcing himself to meet the gaze of his friends he tried to explain. "What was I supposed to do? Kikyo would have died! It was the only way! Sesshoumaru was the only one who could help her and all he wanted in return was to borrow Kagome for a little while to do some things at his castle....she'll be back in no time. Don't you see? This was the best choice. Kikyo is alive and all it cost us was for Kagome to be away for a little while. The bastard will probably get sick of her soon enough and then she'll back!" He should have kept his mouth shut.
Sango was now trembling in rage. "What. Did. You. Just. Say?"
Backing up a step Inuyasha looked at Sango with a small amount of fear and muttered, "Uh...."
Miroku stopped forward and laid a hand on Sango's shoulder as he said, "Inuyasha your stupidity astounds me. Do you truly believe that Sesshoumaru will just bring her back and things will be like they were? Do you not know that the harm you have done to Kagome is permanent?"
"She didn't even need the rest of Kikyo's soul! Her soul is so big that Kikyo's small part was nothing to her!" Inuyasha begged; trying to get his friends to see reason.
"You stupid fucking hanyou!" Sango hissed before she jerked her shoulder out from Miroku's hand and spun around to walk away with Kilala at her heels. She was afraid that if she stayed she really would kill the hanyou, and despite what he'd done to her sister Inuyasha had saved her and her brother's life numerous times. In return she would not kill him today. Now they were even.
Miroku waited until Sango was gone before shaking his head sadly and facing Inuyasha. He had his suspicions about this situation with Sesshoumaru, especially with the secretive smile Kikyo was sporting, but as he had no proof he would keep his mouth shut. There was no reason to worry Sango or Shippo anymore, but he had a feeling Sesshoumaru would not be returning Kagome so easily. Something about all of this was just wrong to him. Looking his traveling companion in the eye he said, "Inuyasha...even if Sesshoumaru does return Kagome quickly nothing will ever be the same again. You have betrayed Kagome in the worst possible way. There is no forgiveness for what you have done, and...you are not welcome here. Take Kikyo and leave this place. Return to Kaede and pray that you are right and Sesshoumaru returns Kagome to us quickly. When Sango and I are finished helping Mushin we shall rejoin you, but know this...we travel with you only to see the destruction of Naraku. Until Lady Kagome herself tells us that she forgives you, we no longer consider you a friend." With that Miroku turned his back on the hanyou and the priestess he had betrayed them all for.
Shippo glared at Inuyasha and Kikyo before sticking his tongue out at them. He swished his tail at them haughtily and hissed, "Just you wait Inuyasha! When Kagome gets back she's going to sit you all the way to hell!"
Inuyasha was shocked at what had just happened. 'They...they left me. We're...not friends anymore?' He couldn't believe how things were falling apart. 'I thought....I mean....it was the only choice...don't they understand? What other choice was there? This was the best way!'
Kikyo looked up at Inuyasha and wrapped her arms around his waist and said, "Don't worry Inuyasha...they're just upset. You made the right choice. Everyone wins this way. I get my life back, and all Kagome has to do is a few little tasks for Sesshoumaru. She'll be back soon and all of this will blow over. Let's return to my sister's village and tell her the good news. Don't be upset any more my love."
Looking down at the smiling Kikyo Inuyasha tried to take comfort in her words, but his gut was twisting in knots. 'What if she's wrong? What if Miroku is right and nothing is ever the same again? What if Sesshoumaru doesn't have her back quickly? What if Kagome never forgives me and hates me now? I...I couldn't take that. I couldn't stand Kagome hating me. Not her.' Seeing Kikyo's expectant expression he pressed a kiss to her forehead and said, "Yeah...let's go see the Baba."
Back in the Western Lands Sesshoumaru looked up from inspecting his claws as a light tap sounded on his chamber door. "Enter." He smiled broadly as the two youkai handmaids shoved a still struggling Kagome into the room and held her still between them by her arms.
Bowing deeply the taller of the two youkai woman said, "Here she is my lord. Prepared just as you requested."
Sesshoumaru let his gaze travel over the form of his soon to be mate. Her hair was still damp and clung to her silk clad form. She was wearing a simple white silk yukata with the emblem of his house adorning the sleeves. As his mate she would never be seen wearing those hideous outfits she had worn before. Despite how roughly he intended to treat her to get her in line she would live a life of luxury. Smirking at the rising scent of his onna's fear he stood slowly from the bed and approached her; enjoying the widening of her eyes and quickening of her breath as her panic increased. "Leave us," he commanded when he was close enough to take hold of Kagome's arm to prevent her from fleeing.
When the two hand maids bowed and left the room he smiled cruelly down at Kagome and asked, "Are you ready to fulfill your destiny bitch?"