Compilation of Emotions
Disclaimer – I do not own any part of the song Tomorrow by Chris Young. Characters are based off of Rumiko Takahashi's Inu-Yasha :-)
Chapter 1- Tomorrow
I slammed the door to my silver, lifted Chevy, and sighed in defeat. "I was tired of fighting over everything, over the stupid little shit that always pisses me off. One of these days I'm just not going to come back like I keep promising to her. I brought myself here again." I thought to myself heavily. "I don't even understand why I'm here anymore, she doesn't want me, but she can't resist to be in my arms. All we do is fight over everything, unless were wrapped in each others arms." I walked up to her door, but before my hand fell against the oak door rimmed with Celtic knots and the tree of life carved in the center, it was slowly pushed open. I seen the gleam of a black metal barrel poking out, before I even seen her beautiful face.
Tomorrow, I'm gonna leave here I'm gonna let you go and walk away like every day I said I would.
Her slender heart shaped face peered around the door, her doe-like brown eyes looked at me suspiciously, then softened when she seen it was me. I heard the familiar click of the safety on her 9MM being flipped back into the 'On' position. "You scared me, Sesshomaru. I wasn't expecting you." She said, while brushing her long raven hair behind her ear.
"I'm sorry, I should have called you Kagome." I said, looking into her brown eyes, waiting for her to open up her door. "Every part of me is telling me to leave, but I just can't. I don't know if it's the sex or if I don't want her to go into anyone else's arms." I sighed again, and walked up to the door and opened it for her. "I'm sorry, for last night. I shouldn't have been so irrational over something so stupid."
And tomorrow, I'm gonna listen to that voice of reason inside my head telling me that were no good.
Before she even began to say anything, my mouth crashed into hers cutting off anything she could have began to say. Her leg wrapped around my waist instantly as my hands caressed her face. I pushed her through the doorway, closing the door behind us with my foot, and backed her into the wall; all the while delivering hot ravenous kisses to her neck.
She pushed me back from her, walked into the kitchen, and placed her 9MM on the counter next to the sink. I grabbed her roughly, my heart pounding like a thousand horses galloping in the west, and pushed her down on the kitchen table while knocking the place mats to the floor.
Her hands ripped my shirt open roughly, popping the buttons that held the fabric together off. As the last button popped, I slid the cotton shirt off of my back and muttered, "That was one of my good shirts, you will have to pay for that" which she responded with a devilish grin.
"Make me." She whispered in my ear, as I tore the thin material of her shirt open, revealing her creamy flesh. Her nails instantly were on my back, raking down words, stopping at my jeans. Her hands fumbled with the button on my jeans, just as always. I smirked, "At least tonight we can pretend that we are good for each other. Tomorrow, I'll leave and I won't come back. It's better this way." I looked into her chocolate orbs, and picked her up, walking blindly to her room.
But tonight I'm gonna give it one last try, rock you strong in these arms of mine forget all the regrets that are bound to follow.
I tossed her onto her bed and took off my jeans, then crawled onto her pinning her down on the soft mattress.
"What are you going to do to me?" She asked, curiosity gleaming in her eyes. Her hands gently traced the outline of my chest, down to muscles over my hips that she kindly referred to as the 'magical V'.
I unlatched her bra and pushed it aside, grabbing her breasts roughly. "I told you, that you would have to pay, did I not?" I smirked at her again; as her face twisted with pleasure from the small amount of pain I gave her. "Don't move." I instructed her as I slowly slid off of her feminine form. I moved to the table to the left of her, opened the drawer and grabbed the two sets of hand cuffs, then looked back to her with a hint of evil in my golden orbs.
Her eyes widened, and a smirk slowly spread on her face, as she tried to get up to bolt for the door. I responded quickly and foiled her plan by grabbing her wrist and forcing her back down to the bed. "Didn't I tell you not to move?" I said to her harshly. "Now I will really have to punish you." I breathed in her ear. I forcefully grabbed her wrist and pushed one of the cuffs around her wrist, then latched the other side of the cuff to the bedpost. "What should I do to you?" I contemplated as I repeated the same motion with her other hand.
We're like fire and gasoline I'm no good for you your no good for me, we only bring each other tears and sorrow.
I pulled off the pink thong she wore, and trailed kisses up her long legs, leading me straight up to her sweet core. Her back arched upwards as my tongue lightly teased her clit. I could feel myself becoming hard, I had to fight my own electrical pulses and bite back a moan as my tongue dove inside of her. Her hands dug into the sheets as my tongue made quick work of making her begin to come to her first climax.
I stopped suddenly, just before her peak, and ran light kisses up her torso, ending at her mouth. I looked into her eyes and watched the fire that I had built up burn with wonder. "How can we be so good at this together, but nothing else?" I crashed my lips against hers as I forced myself into her.
Her moans filled the room as I pushed her legs up to my shoulders and drove myself into her in quick hard strides pushing her to her first orgasm. I pushed her legs off of me, and pinned her to the bed with my body as I slowed the pace down and showered her with kisses. The roughness, I know she wanted was there. Now, she needs and craves the slow tenderness that she claims she doesn't need, but I know her better than that. I smiled as she bucked her hips upwards against mine, forcing hard strides.
"Harder." she commanded me. I know she wants the roughness but I'm in control and I am giving her the best of both worlds tonight.
"No." I said sternly, holding her face in my hands, slowly moving her to worlds she can only reach with me.
"Please." Her voice laced with need and want this time.
"Okay." I said as I broke to her whims. I smirked when her face contorted with pleasure written all over her face. I made her come to another climax, and then slowed the pace down again. I'm in charge. This is my grand finale to her; after all there isn't much else we can do together before I follow through with not coming back.
We danced for another hour, ending in a tangled mess of blankets and sheets. And after everything was said and done, I felt like we were meant to be here together. That I wasn't supposed to leave yet; call it what you will, but I'll call it a lover's remorse.
But tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow I'll be stronger I'm not gonna break down and call you up when my heart cries out for you.
She lit up a cigarette after cleaning herself up, and lay in bed with me. "So when are you going to leave?" She asked, breaking the ice.
"Tomorrow." I responded to her with a sigh. I don't want to go after tonight, but what am I suppose to do? Sit here and fight with her for the rest of our lives. All we do is fight, I don't want to do that anymore; I can't do that anymore.
"Oh, that's why you came?" She asked me quietly, as she flicked the ash off of her cigarette into the ashtray.
"I was going to go today. I just couldn't. I didn't want to leave you on a bad note." I said, holding her close to me, running my fingers through her hair gently. "I love you, I just can't stand being with you." My thoughts plagued my mind tonight, and I couldn't understand if it was me just reiterating the truth to myself, or if I was trying to convince myself of the truth that my heart wouldn't accept.
And tomorrow you wont believe it but when I pass your house I won't stop no matter how bad I want too.
"Tonight I wanted to give it one last try, rock you strong in these arms of mine. Forget all the regrets that are bound to follow. We're like fire and gasoline I'm no good for you, you're no good for me. We only bring each other tears and sorrow. But tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow." I said the words low, knowing she'd understand what I meant. She knew the song, hell probably every word; but it was the truth.
Baby when were good you know we're great but there's too much bad for us to think that there's anything worth trying to save – But tonight I'm gonna give it one last try rock you strong in these arm's of mine forget all the regrets that are bound to follow were like fire and gasoline I'm no good for you your no good for me we only bring each other tears and sorrow but tonight I'm gonna love you like there's no…
We fell asleep to each other's heartbeats for the last time that night. Because I knew, come morning, I'd leave and not look back.
Morning came and went, I said my goodbyes and left her in tears, again in her door way. I went to my house, to finish packing up my belongings so I could head to Tokyo. Half the day was gone by time I finished, and when I drove past her house, I almost stopped; but I didn't, I just kept driving. I felt a tear escape my left eye as I left the town in a cloud of dust. I turned the radio on to the local country station as the town faded in my rear view mirror. Chris Young's voice poured out every emotion I felt last night.
Tomorrow I'm gonna leave here, I'm gonna let you go and walk away like every day I said I would.